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LOLs...duno y...kinda feeling lost...mayb coz Rin isnt on9 pei me chit chat...KS too has disappear...I seriously dun feel lyk chatting wif my otha frens abt it...I juz feel lyk tell RinT_T...budden shes nt on9...nw listening 2 ping chang xin by zhang hui mei...mayb I shuld folo wad e song says...LOLs...

Tmr nid bring medals...duno 4 wad...

Im still mugging...although I dun feel lyk doing so...I guess Im going 2 spend e last few hrs of e mid-autumn festival alone at home mugging...suddenly wan hear Liser/Megen/KJ/Joey voices...budden dey cant appear in same converse n I can hear 1 of their voices aredy is rare liao wors...

Mr Tan still in reserviceT_T...no maths lessons...feeling totally LOST~!!!T_T...I wan hear voices dats nt e songs Im playing nw~!!

Evil Emoness pls go awayT_T...Im close 2 breaqking down frm stress in e exams le...dats y feeling so fake in sku lor...pretend as if its nth...Im feeling my migraine is getting worse n worse...my headache still havnt subside yet...budden I so xi guan 2wards it dat I can pretend nth has happen...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!
SOMEONE PLS HELP ME SORT OUT MY TOTS~!!PREFERABLY MEGEN~!!!!!

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Here I am...blogging again...out of habit...

Tis morning had a stupid BrainWaveScan...dat guy put lotsa stickers all over my head n den check my BrainWaves 4 abnormility...LOL...its lame lar...budden I dunlyk e flashing light part...feel so uncomfy starring in2 e flashing light...

Aft dat chiong 2 sku...I promised Sann dat I will b back in sku by recess...I honoured my promise...Jo asked did he juz saw me n Saman said she tot she was dreaming when she saw me...LOLs...all dowan c me isit?!LOL

Den was maths class...Mr Clement Ng took our classrm so 3H was lyk homeless waifs sitting outside e classrm n arnd e main space near e staircase...LOL...den was singing"O when the saints go marching in"n e Duckling Song wif Sann coz e guys were lyk walking arnd in 1 line in protest or sth...LOL...lyk mother duck bring kids out 2 play...LOL...come 2nd period Miss Eugenia Lim came n save us n brought us 2 e library...she helped me sign my movement form^^ty^^~! Den Japh commented dat gt red color pigment on my head...replied it as color pencil markings frm juz nw de BrainWaveScan...den me n Jo argued abt me having Brain Dmg n everything...LOLs...den I threaten 2 whack him wif my Chem TB...den he say ok lor...den all e Chem things will gt in2 his brain=.=so lame...so whacked him lightly...he say nt hard enuf...so I act as if I wan 2 hit hard n he start 2 cover his head...LOLs...den I kinda say him"I hit soft u say nt hard enuf...den I wan hit hard u scared...WAD U WAN ME DO?!"LOL...den he say ok n walked off 2 find e rest of e gang dat wasnt there wif me Sann n Japh...LOL...den aft dat Sann say she wan go find othas den say me stay here wif Japh...den I gt e feeling dat she wanna shake me off or sth...I duno lar...budden I still foloed her...even asked Japh along...LOL...dumb me...shuld hav juz stayed there...found e rest den foloed Sam 2 toilet 2 avoid e rest den came back sat down n was laming arnd...crappy lar...

Den Chem...totally flunked e test larT_T...

HMT...XM saw me n say"Wa...U come liao arh~!"...den I replied"Y?Dowan c me arh?"...Den she say"No arh^^"LOL...den scolded JW abt his class taking our classrm as theirs...LOL...budden oso in e end no really angry lar...was juz feeling down abt my Chem test lor...

Den Physics test...oso flunked lar...haizzz

Den SS...4 1s I listened in class...LOLs...budden 2wards e end...bored till I gt distracted n chit chat wif Japh...LOLs...

End of day~had Jo pei me go home...actually he say rite leh...is he pei me lor...nt I pei him...so I was nice person n pei him take purple line...chit chat abit more...LOL...long tym oso no chit chat wif him so randomly liao...LOLs...was kinda happy...duno y...LOLs

Den went home sit down in front of TV...ate durian puffs while doing Biio notes...I guess my tymtabe is ruined...I tink I beta off doing 1sub by 1sub lar...den I accidentally knocked down my dinner...nw nid recook my dinner...sry mummyT_T...at least I eating...at 1st dowan eat de...coz mum scold alot...den wan dun eat in protest...budden in e end she still cooked maggi mee 4 me 2 eat...LOLs...

Okok lar...I beta go eat dinner liao...Gd nite all n Gd Luck in ur studies 4 e EOYS^^

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I DUNO Y IM BLOGGING~I SHULD B STUDYING~!!!LOL...in e end oso din study much...haha

2day kena suan say my blog v.boring de...fine lor...I dun upd8 jiu say me din upd8...den I upd8 jiu say boring...WTH U GUYS WAN LAR?!*ANGRY*Aft tis post Im nt eva going 2 blog again~!!!Stupid ppl~kip my blog alive oso no1 help me...so juz end e suffering lar~!Kill it lar~!

2day classes...PE...was watching guys play Captains Ball...so funny...

Bio...revise bio...was being guai kia 4 1st period n oso 1/2 of 2nd period...revise till 2nd 1/2 of 2nd period...sian liao...so chit chat wif Saman...

Recess...nth much lor...Jo l8ly duno y...will come our table chit chat de...muz b lyk 1 of us gals...Val Sher n WP gt high possibility wakakaka...l8er Jo read confirm kena him bash in sku de...

Maths we were being lame...play matchmaking game...Sann was 1st...her results so LOL...den my turn...KS n Sann de results so LOL...its lyk...its wad I suspected dat was happening during my super low tyms...dats y at dat tym...wasnt close 2 both of dem at all...tok 2 dem will in a few secs xplode...lyk dynamite liddat...so dumb...den Val's turn...she din gt e results she wan...LOL...sumore hers super elusive...den was Jo's turn...he sumore do twice...1st tym he din manage 2 gt sth...LOL...super stupid...den 2nd tym...he delibrately do pair games...budden...in e end...4 KS de results...he gt same as me...so stupid...y every1 hu put KS name is pair him wif Sann de...LOL...nvm...juz a game...n oso...he paired WP wif Sirbest...LOL...nt bad...WP was happy lyk hell...WP angry at me coz in my turn Sirbest was my admirer...den nw super happy dat she kena Sirbest at Jo's try...so was lyk bestie wif Jo...LOL...den I dunlyk Jo's 2nd try coz I bcame his wife...SO STUPID~!!Stupid game...LOL...budden actually...I dunmind leh...Jo IS a nice guy...budden I still lyk KS more wakakaka...sumore during 2nd try...Jo accidentally say out KS de name...den make WP say"O...nw I noe his name is KokSoon le..."...WTH?!LOL...aiya...she noe jiu noe lor...wads e big deal man?!

Aft maths is eng...slacky tym again...

Physics...Saman shout at Jo n me slapped Jo...Saman was super frustrated mah...den Jo juz nice...call me...den I sit bside Saman mah...den she kena irritated...she shouted at Jo 2 shuddup...LOL...den XT say"finally...peace~"LOL...well cant say dey arent noisy...den Jo aft a few mins call me again...tis tym I went over there coz I wan hear e"go 2 hell"story...den YC say"Aiya wadeva e story...juz slap him lar..."den I slapped him lor...den I went back 2 sit down...I duno was dat hurting anot lar...I oso duncare...Im nt feeling particularly happy too...so I oso duncare...budden aft dat I said sry...

Chinese kena big scolding...whole class lor...den nth liao...

End of day was suppose 2 stay in sku hav"maths remedial"by Mr Choy...budden coz YeYe n Jul...I 4gt everything totally...I reach le MRT...den rmb dat I oso suppose 2 w8 4 HuiMei...budden in e end miss 3trains oso din w8 tio her...so went home sadlyT_T...SORRY SHIHONG N HUIMEI~!!!IM SUPER SORRYT_T

Ok...nth 2 say le...bb~JYJY all 4 e coming exams~!!
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Y m I e stupid soft 1 dat oways say sorry 1st?!Y m I e dumb ass stupid person dat cry aft I lost sth instead of being strong?!Y m I so loyal 2 my frens?!Y m I ME?!Y m I playing maple?!Y m I so high lvl?!Y do ppl hate me so much?!On e countary~Y do ppl love me too?!Y does I hav such wondrous frens lyk Sann Saman Jo Jul n SH?!I seriously dun deserve dem lar~!!!!Esp when during my PMS days...its lyk I will make dem pissed of at me lar~!!!!

Ok I admit...pass few days I was pms-ing...so blew up Sann&Jo...2 of my top most best frens...I juz blew dem up n I duno y~!!!!Can dey stop being nice 2 me?!Its lyk I dun deserve it lar...dey r juz too nice...n wheneva I pms...dey confirm will kena my mood swing de lar...so damn stupidly guilty~!!!!Argh...wad hav I doneT_T...its lykIm feeling I dun treasure dem...budden its lyk if dey r gone...I tink I will die...n seriously...die...

Sat was e day I finally lvled 2 82...aft mths of tears n hardwork...I finally bought 2X n chiong...I guess I juz wan chiong all my anger out...I stayed on e comp till I lvled...I guess its oso my anger dat brought me 2 tink of KJ...I realise I use 2 complain dat wheneva KJ angry...he will blew me up...I noe how 2 say KJ...budden wad I do wheneva I pms?!Haizzz...so actually kinda called up KJ...guess juz wanna chat wif dat stupid old fren of mine...n hoping dat Liser will b there too...budden Liser mugging lyk siao...heard frm KJ...n so...tok 2 KJ lor...guess e fight straighten my tinking...I shuldnt blame othas 4 hu dey r...every1 is different...if I blame dem 4 hu dey r...y nt blame myself 4 hu I m...y chgn dem?!Dey r juz being dem aft all...so I guess 2 prevent anymore friction btween me n KJ...2 b silent n tok less 2 him...toking in maple is enuf...juz stay as maple frens will b enuf...RL frens quite impossible...too much differences wich I cant remain silent abt=.=no matter how much I tried...

As Tuesday creeps up...Im kinda getting scared...I duno y...suddenly hope Sann Saman Jo Jul will b going wif me 2 KKH nxt Tues when I take e results...I juz duno y...going there alone seems 2 juz...gimme e creeps...if its negative how?...I duntink I can survive alone...budden...I guess I hav 2...

Den juz nw...DarDar was being so funny...LOL...b his Ah Ma...LMAO...

Well...aft tis post...finally feel slpy le...mayb coz all e things I wanna say is out le...abt my fears n everything...haizzz...gd nite...ty sry n I love u...2 all my frens dat I pissed off...

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Back 2 blogging again^^gt a few things 2 say in tis post^^

NO.1)GET WELL SOON TO ALL THOSE HU R SICK~!!!!Nw is sick season luhs...muz take loads of care kaes?Esp if u arent sick coz u dowan 2 b getting sick^^so ALL TAKE CARE~!

NO.2)If u r concern abt MY health...juz wanna say dat Im fine...e doc's elementary examinations tell him dat otha den stress...there isnt anotha cause for my fits last Monday...so ya^^dun worry^^

NO.3)MY HANDPHONE HAS BEEN CONFISCATED FOR A MTH~!I will oni gt it back at 13October2007...so dun sms/call me...if u wanna contact me...my hse number is 64818229 n my mum's hp number is 97422652...u can contact me via tis 2numbers...I suggest my hse number though...coz my mum kinda"grounded"me...say its 4 my own gd=.=LOL

NO.3)ALL THE BEST FOR THE COMING END-OF-YEAR EXAMINATIONS~!Whether its impt anot...still hav 2 work hard kaes?JIAYOU ALL~!!!!

OK...I tink dats all...nw 2 e start of my diary^^

2day Sann early morning jiu call me liao...cant hear her properly coz she gt sore throat...she say she wun b coming sku thoughT_T...actually dowan go sku de...den in e end still went...feeling damn bored lar...I cant live without SannT_T....LOL...so went sku...Sam nvr go MI...damn stupid...so was stuck wif Jul,Jo n Joshua...CK dey all pumped e B2s 4 slow reflexes 2day...I tot cant pump?Haiz...nvm lar...dey r in charge...I gt nth 2 say...den aft dat...went 2 tell Miss Choi abt Tues de BrainWaveScan...so sai...will miss 1/2day of sku or so bahT_T...so told Miss Choi...Mdm Lee juz nice there oso...so asked me gt prayer request anot...feel touched budden I rejected politely...I said...it shuld b ok bah...I aredy prayed n she said ok lor...den went 2 chapel 2gether wif Miss Choi...feeling kinda emo lor...nearly cried...so was kinda shutting up so as 2 contain my tears=.=DAMN STUPID EMONESS~!!LOL...den aft dat was HCL...even more stupid...realised dat KJ nvr come sku oso...guess he sick lyk SannT_T...y is every1 sick?!Wasnt God suppose 2 b lyk protecting us frm harm?Haiz...nvm...den aft dat was recess...juz bcame more stupid...I DIDNT ASK MONEY FRM MUMMY~!SO IS OFFICIALLY BANKRUPT~!LOL...so borrowed money frm Licia...thx girl^^n ate sth full...hope I wun gt hungry soon...LOL...den aft dat was maths...walk up e stairs...met Jul...so ask her a random qns..."can u b frens wif WaiPing?"...she replied..."Anything lor...is she dowan oso anyway..."LOL...e 2 of dem damn stupid de leh...LOL~!Den went 2 class...saw Jo chiong out...LOL...step in no wonder...e whole class contains gals oni...e rest of e guys nt arnd...LOL...den aft dat ask Ping e same qns...she said no...she dowan 2 b frens wif Jul...LOL...den I say...at least mediate e probs btween u 2 mah...den she ask me wan b mediator isit...I said no...but ZX wan...den she said...WA~!Hes even worse den u~!...den I replied...ya lar ya lar...Sirbest can lar...come~lets go find Sirbest n ask him b mediator...LOL...den she say OK LAR...COME LAR~!LOL...den we went off 2 find Jul n Best...LOL...den call dem out...Jo came n b e xtra...budden he was so funny dat I cant help laughing lar...so Mediator Sirbest is a total failure~!!!!LOL...we 5 juz stand there n laugh laugh laugh lar~!Den Mr Tan came n WP Jo n me return 2 class...LOL...den gt bad maths results...STUPID HONGYI~!Gimme TinTing de paper...scare me...tot I gt 10 nia...den lucky aft dat...sum1 return e rite paper 2 me...so bcome 12^^same as LiuLiu^^HI5^^LOL...den 2day Jo call wrong ppl...LOL...he call Liu,Yancheng leh~!!!!LOOOOOL...make me n Bert suan Liu...den come back...Jo oso suan Liu...LOOOOOOL...so funny...den it was Chem n Eng...had Eng oral...so dumb ass difficult lar...budden tink I manage 2 scrape thru lar...LOL...scrape thru both Oral n Summary Test...so sai...

Ok lar...nid go research on e Current Affairs thing 4 tmr le...kinda lazy 2 do so though...LOL...budden 4 my SA1 marks...JIA YOU BAHS~!!!!

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LOL...feeling kind of emo nw...coz jean ask me go read KJ's blog...say I tagged him or sth...budden Im lyk...go read...1st thing I notice e tym...IM OUTSIDE AREDY AT DAT TYM LAR~!2nd thing is...I JUZ REACH HOME ONI~!3rd thing is...I DUN CALL JEAN,BEAN~!4th thing...I GT MY DARDAR LIAO...HOW COME WILL LYK KJ?!4th thing...I DIN TOK 2 LISER 4 A SUPER LONG TYM LIAO...HOW CAN SHE TELL ME SHE LYK KJ?!So was kinda pissed at e imposter...ITS DUMB LAR...OFF ALL PPL...Y ME?!And anyway...wan impersonate oso gt facts rite n impersonate more convincingly mah...so stupid...cant even impersonate my lang...wan impersonate me...so stupid...budden...it will test whether kj will trust me 2 do such things anot lar...if he cant even tell apart hu is me n hu isnt...den he n I r really a failure as a fren 2 each otha...anyway...2day went KKH...aft dat ToaPayoh den went home 4 a nap...den went 2 sku n Yishun wif Jul...saw Nicholas n gang...budden dey nvr c me...LOL...den aft dat on e way home...suddenly felt emo n tot alot abt things...some kinda random things...den aft dat came home...went MSN...Jean tok 2 me...she ask me wads wif me on KJ's blog...den Im lyk...tinking...I din go KJ's blog 4 quite some tym liao...so went there...realise he chgned skin n its quite nice...4 1s I applaude his taste of blogskin...n anyway...went 2 tagboard n realise abt e imposter thingy...so dumb lar...kinda read abit of his blog n suddenly all my random emo tinkings came back n I even gt anotha 1...all thx 2 reading kj's wishlist=.=...ok...tym 4 my randomness...will type in chinese den...n i will refer kj 2 as朋友coz i gt some sentence is direct at him de...ya...n i hope he will read but i tink its unlikely...he aredy un-link me on his blog anyway...theres no return le...

NO.1...朋友。。。我想跟你说：对不起。。。我知道我那天的语气太重了。。。可是我只是想把我当天的不开心都讲出来。。。我知道时间已经不能倒转了。。可是。。。如果时间可以倒转。。。我还是会那样做。。。因为。。。这对我们彼此都是好事。。。所以。。。我现在想说的是。。。祝你。。。天天快乐。。。不要再往后看了。。。因为。。。过去的已经过去了。。。希望你能开心一点。。。加油~!

NO.2...its kinda random...LOL...当天赐给我们一样东西时，他一定会从我们的身边拿走一样东西。所以，当天赐给我他时，他就从我的身边拿走了一样东西，我大概想，他拿走我的好朋友是因为他要我更珍惜我的新的好友，所以才会拿走那个好朋友。可是天啊，为什么一定要是他呢？难道是因为你也赐给他一样东西吗？大概是吧。。。

NO.3...tis is even more random...LOL...开心的事，有如我们常吃的巧克力，甜甜的。不开心的事，有如我们生病时喝的苦药。当我们吃太多巧克力，我们就会生病，就要吃苦药，可是，苦药又能让我们强身健体。所以，有开心的时候，就有不开心的时候。所以，当开心的时刻降临，我们就应该好好的享受。当不开心的时刻降临，我们也不应该灰心，因为它就像苦药，能让我们“强身健体”，让我们更“健康”。我们也应该耐心等候开心时刻的到来，因为希望就是力量。Theres no such thing as a painless life.Painless life is lyk 镜中花，水中月,juz an illusion...budden...life doesnt oni come wif pain...it come wif happiness too...e tricks 2 a painless life r duntink too much abt e painful times...tink more of e happy tyms n dun live in e past...it is history aredy...no use crying over spilt milk...u cant chgn e past...budden...u can chgn e future...so...lets work hard 2 chgn e future~! JIAYOU~!

Ok...end of my random-ness...LOL...I guess l8ly nt being able 2 tok 2 sann dey all coz of my untymly calling tyms made me"tok"alot 2 myself...oso e recent fits...although e doc dowan 2 say lar...coz scared will scare tio my mummy...budden he gt tell me...1 of e causes of fits is tumour in e brain...dats y nid brain scan...den was lyk tinking l8ly...touchwood lar...may god forbid...if I really kena cancer...wad wuld I do...e above random-ness is e results of my tots bah...I duno will there b more...budden Im sure...n I hope...dey will oways b my principles of life...n hope I will oways b able 2 stand by it^^

Ok...gtg liao...BB~smile n stay happy oways~!<333

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Nearly a wk since I post...LOL...juz a quick upd8 of my highlights tis wk^^

~Monday~
Had sku as usual...den 4 1s...went home without eating lunch...Jo lor...bug me go maple...LOL...in e end she culdnt go inside e lanshop...LOL...no sku uniforms allow~!LOL...nt even 1/2u=.=LOL...den he called me 2 ask whther he can go my hse maple...den called my mum...she said no...called back Jo n he said ok lor...den reach home...play wif Ah Ang[neighbour's baby]...den felt slpy...so went 2 take a nap...when I wake up...my mum was"holding"me...she sound frantic...so kinda lyk listen den realise dat I suddenly had fits n fell frm my bed~!OMGOSH LAR~!Nt frighten oso kena my mum frighten...soon...ambulance came...send me 2 TTSH...I vomitted in e ambulance sumore...LOL...den e Civil Defence gal was lyk...wad did u eat 4 breakfast...I replied chicken rice...den u noe wad she said?!SHE SAID THERE GOES UR CHICKEN RICE~!OMGOSH~!NVR WANNA EAT LEMON CHICKEN RICE FRM SKU ANYMORE MAN=.=LOL...den TTSH checked me up...referring me 2 KKH 4 neurologist n dad fetch me n mummy go home...I've gotten a 1day MC man=.=LOL...anyway...1 of my maternal unc came n warn me...kind off warn lar...guess he was super worried...my maternal side oways dote on me...my grandma n 1 unc came n visit...so ya...unc kind of warn me lor...say Im nt allow 2 play e comp,watch too much TV n nid 2 take ample rest...well...was tinking...wads my MC 4?! STAY AT HOME N REST~!LOL...so went home n slept...mum slept wif me...so dat she can kip an eye on me...LOL...

~Tuesday~
NO SKU~!NO SAMAN'S BDAY PARTYT_T~!But still waked up early...mum nid go market mah...den she dun tink its safe 2 kip me at home alone...so dragged me along lor...so I tagged along...kind off lar...so me went...SAW A CUTE PAIR OF SHOES~!OMGOSH~!GOTTA HAV IT LAR~!But dunhav my size=.=LOL...ok...nt exactly dunhav my size...its dunhav e size I wan...seze38 fit me perfectly lar...but I requested at least a size39...frm xperience I noe dat such shoes r painful...so I felt dat abit larger wuld b beta...so I requested size39...BUT DUNHAV~!T_T...so had 2 leave without buyingT_T...den mum bring me go c fortune teller or sth...well...I dowan say wad happen there...coz its stupid lar...but I gt totally nth 2 say...so aft dat went home...took a long nap n prepare 4 nxt day's return 2 sku^^

~Wednesday~
Basically went back 2 sku...heard alot of concerns frm frens...HuiMei din come sku...so Yinny was complaining dat ytd was Sann bored n 2day is her turn coz Ah Mei nvr come sku...LOL...so sku went on as usual...den aft sku...went trgn as usual...mum objected but I wun listen...lazy xplain 2 dem oso lar...she wun listen oso...den aft dat went eating wif Jul Jo FookChoy Jeremy JunHao...chit chat abit den go home liao...kena scolding when I went home...tot...nvm...let mis kee xplain 4 me bah...LOL...evil me=.=

~Thursday~
Nth much...juz receive e news dat nxt day gt interview 4 nxt yr de post=.=LOL...abit scare abt it...kind of told Dardar...but he oso no reacti0on de...LOL..."Bo Feeling"=.=

~Friday~Today~
Nth much happened in sku...juz alot of remarks abt Jo in Assembly lor...he tok 2 gals instead of guys mah...LOL...actually...1 reason dat I felt close 2 Jo was dat...he lyk kind of understands gals...dats wad make him different frm guys dat I noe...make me kind of lyk him lor...lyk him enuf 2 b close frens lor...mayb he dun treat me as a close fren...but I daresay...I treat him as 1 of my gd frens^^!N btw...MRS JANICE LIM CONFISCATED MY HANDPHONET_T~!SHE CAME DURING GEOG UNANNOUNCED N I LOST TIFFANY'S PHONE ALONG WIF MINET_T!IM SORRY TIFFANY NG~!IM SUPER SORRYT_T...ok...back 2 end of sku...anyway...blah blah blah...tok 2 Mrs Lim abt my phone n ya...gone 4 1mth...well...save money wor...LOL...tis yr bills confirm wun burst le lor^^LOL...YAY~!LOL...anyway...went 4 interview 4 nxt yr's post...my interview was quite ok lor...there was abit of shooting abt problems of I1'07s...but othawise...went quite well...was abit sry 2 WP n Sirbest...IM SORRYT_T~!Sirbest noe y anyway...but I duntink shuld tell WP lor...sry Ping...will xplain 2 u myself soon~juz hope e thing didnt downgrade u or did u any harm...sry...anyway...ZX cried...he kena shoot till v.jia lat...its lyk abit personal atk...if I was Xuan...1 of e qns I will ans..."If u dun trust me...den y do u wan send me 2 SSC?If u r going 2 take down my Staff SGT rank n my Lanyard in e end...y did u send me 2 SSC?"...tis ans may nt shut dem up...it may make things worse...but at least I noe dat I stand up 4 myself...I guess...Im nt wrong...lyk gt 1 qns mdm Loo ask me..."Arent u scared dat when u r close 2 e juniors,dey will nt respect u or anything liddat during trgns?"...I replied..."If dey do nt respect me...den wad is my rank 4?I trust dat even if dey dun respect me...dey will respect my rank...or else...in short...my rank is useless...4 show only...I might as well tear down e rank..."...well...Reagen's reaction was kind of same as mis Seh...nodding slowly...I guess my interview was quite ok...but ZX's isnt though...juz wanna tell ZX...duno whether he will read anot...but still...I wan say"好朋友，不要想太多啦。。。你可以，就是可以的，不要担心，如果你真地拿不到你要的位置，也不要担心，因为不管你是什么位置，我的会支持你的，不要因为你拿不到你要的位置而quit ncc。。。因为这是错误的想法。。。反而，你应该在你的那个位置做好自己的工作。。。加油~！^^...2 rest of e I1'07s...I wanna say...GOOD LUCK~! HOPE U ALL CAN GT WAD U WAN^^JIA YOU^^

Ok...beta gt going 2 do work...bb
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I realise I luv my frens alot...ppl lyk sann...jo...dar...megen...papa...alicia[s]...jiejie...xm...dada...ah mei...josie...yeye...saman...ju...maple frens...sku frens...ncc frens...sumtyms till when I will gt guilty shouting at dem...lyk dat tym...I shout at Jo on Tues...den aft dat he gt angry at me...I immediately regret n wanna cry...its lyk...so stupid...den I oways fight wif Ju n Saman in ncc...Saman esp...in kayak...I oways will shout at her...den when I go back on shore I will regret...Sann oso...its lyk...sumtyms she tok 2 me when Im feeling irritated...I will lyk scream at her or sth...den ytd I was throwing my tantrums at dar...he din gt angry n even coax me...LOL...dey r all diamonds 2 me man...I really hope all my frens will b wif me 4eva n eva...I promise dat I wun throw tantrums at u guys liao...I will b lyk e cat I caught tis morning...guai guai de...dun make u guys angry at me leT_T...IM SORRY MY FRIENDS~!!!!!!I LOVE U GUYS~!!!!!!!

Lol...speaking of newfound frenship...LOL...me n KS nt exactly newfound frenship lor...but l8ly we tok alot 2 each otha lor...LOL...den dat day papa was teasing me...Digger aka KW[nt KahWee] lor...KW was saying how handsome KS is...well...I dun really agree...sry dar^^I feel hes quite gd looking oni...anyway...din tell papa dat...papa was teasing me scarli I c KS liao jiu wan marry him liao...den oso say dat KS is my Mr Right...HALO PAPA~! Im young n nt despo ty^^LOL...say till so kua zhang...I was lyk telling KS ytd or sth...he say gt O lvls luhs...ya lar~! O lvls...nid chuong study...my study lyk shit liao...still add anotha burden...l8er I cant cope man...LOL...but at least I gt a Phy-Chem helper otha den papa...LOL...no lar...papa help maths...KS help Phy-Chem...LOL...Im evil 2 find study partner haha...

Anyway...Sea Comp over liao...we lost again...Miss Seh cried again...feeling super sad lor...sumore last yr din gt 2 kayak...stupid...fought wif WP again...haiz...gt nth 2 say lor...oways fighting wif her...wonder when will we stop fighting...LOL

Tmr start sku liao...nid do hmwk...bb~

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Ytd was tchers day cum ACES day...damn retarded lor...LOL...e hadn gang was being a total retard gang...ok...mayb nt all...WE WERE ONE OF E ONI PPL FOLOING E COUNCILORS DO E ACES~! HAHAHA...den every1 was lyk looking at us...den sumore me n sann kip doing wrong...damn funny...yanyi was lyk looking at us smiling or sth...LOL...

After e ACES day thingy...it was e tchers day celebration concert...it was quite boring but we saw SL Sze Hoe doing his leading...LOL...their song quite nice...KuekJing gd singing...

After is e class party...LOL...we make Miss Choi sing...she singing夜的诗人by江美琪...sing so nice...still say duno how 2 sing...LOL...den we force YanCheng 2 sing wif Sheryl...budden in e end is YanCheng n Miss Choi sing梁山伯与朱丽叶by曹戈n蔡卓萱...LOL...den Sher Ping n Val was singing wif dem...LOL...so nice...deb during taking class photo...e HPTs came back...XT was crying...tis is e 2nd tym or so I c her cry...everytym I c her cry I will feel lyk crying de...LOL...tis tym oso...I try gt her 2 eat e tchers day cake...but she dowan...in e end manage 2...wif help of Ping n Miss Choi...I feel abit lame lar...I told her l8er gt trgn so she muz at least eat 1 mouth or else l8er hungry...LOL...stupid xcuse...LOL...

Den is trgn...2day abit cock up...den was trying e burst n long stroke...I can do e long strokes but e burst abit lousy...but still can manage...budden due 2 lack or practice...I dcide 2 giv up doubles team...I can work wif Saman but...I juz cant kayak well...last yr kayaking dat little aredy gt Bronze liao...tis yr kayak even lesser wich is even worse...mayb last place lorT_T...dowan 2 b lastT_T...so told Miss Seh I dunmind nt going coz of my lesser water tym n I dowan 2 bcoz of me n pull e whole team down...our SeaGals Goal tis yr is win Canberra...win SeaGals Champion mah...I rather contribute lesser den 2 coz us 2 nt reach our goal as a SeaGals Champion...

Ok...feel lyk going 2 maple liao...bb

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I wanna dedicate tis post 2 Saman~hope saman can read it n understand~

Heys Saman~Sry abt pang sehing u in doubles~Its nt I dowan b in it~I very much wanna b in it~but I dowan 2 pull e team down~I dowan 2 pull e SeaGals dowan~I dowan let e juniors down~I dowan 2 let e TOs down~Most importantly~I dowan let e inter1s down~Do u tink I wan giv up e chance?!~Tis is my LAST yr leh~!~Do u tink it doesnt pain me when I suggested dat u gals take doubles without me?!~I tell u~IT DOES~!~I WANNA CRY WHEN I SAID DAT LOR~!~I WANNA 2 TAKE IT BACK LOR~!~

Rmb last yr when we were 2gether in e doubles? I panicked when I saw every1 chionging faster den us~! I seriously dowan history 2 repeat itself~! Prevention is beta den cure~so I feel I shuldnt go down...n anyway~I screwed up e B&H Competition liao~I dowan 2 screw anotha~I dowan 2 miss e SeaGals Champion tis yr~I rather nt being able 2 compete den 2 cause us 2 cant win e SeaGals Champion~

And oso...mayb u nvr notice...e juniors n e rest of e gals trained really hard 4 tis yr sea competition~esp e kayaking part...I dowan 2 disappoint dem lyk last yr how e Inter2s disappoint us...I dowan 2 let e juniors down~I dowan 2 let u gals down~!

E TOs n CLTs dunid 2 say...mayb dey nvr kip saying"must win sea comp champion"...but...I can c dat dey really hope dat we can win~I dowan 2 let dem down~I dowan bcoz of me~make us lose e SeaGals Champion~I dowan 2 disappoint U all~!

So...super sorry dat I cant team wif u 4 e sea comp doubles~I am really super sorry~

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