Feeling really down and tired. Death is becoming THE option already. Hope the new year would be better...for everyone...

I'm so boredT_T

Feel so tired for God knows what reason today. Have been like a pig=.= I slept at like 11pm last night and woke up at around 9am this morning. At about 1pm in the afternoon, I went to take a nap again and only wake up at around 4pm just now=.= It's like as if someone put a sleeping spell on me=.=

Still got many homework need to be done=((( There's also the upcoming JL1 Common TestT_T I think I'll put off all the Tutorials to after the QC and PED Common Tests. I think I really really need to study hard for my core modules already=((( I feel I suxT_T I hope I can really get what I want this time...
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Wow! The week of the first is ending soon LOLs!! Time flies~

Had lessons on Monday as usual. First week of no QC Tutorial xD So had lessons only starting from 10am. KuanKo sux as usual so didn't listen in class as usual. I missed out on the notes though=(( Must remember to ask for it from someone to copy from soon. Then had OC lab session. Had fun producing Aspirin xD I don't know why, I didn't add alot of reagents nor put the solution through the vaccuum pump filtering for long but the crystals I produced through the experiment is quite a large amount and very dry LOLs!! I even gave some to Joce's group because they feel their output wasn't very much LOLs!! Stayed in school to do the SP2 model after classes ended before. Met Xian's friend YiPing for the first time

Then Tuesday morning, first lesson: BCS Lecture. It was cancelled because Mdm Sheila Song, our lecturer, has to go for a conference LOLs! Then, there wasn't any SP2 lesson because Mdm Chua also went for the conference LOLs!! But I still went to school early to prepare the place for the exhibition. Actually, not exactly early LOLs!! I reached at around 2pm+ LOLs!! It's because I went to eat Pizza Hut with Joce and her boyfriend before going to school xP It's like there is only one pathetic lesson today, FOR THE FIRST TIME!!! LOLs!! The one and only lesson not cancelled today: Mr Kevin Robert's OC Lecture. During the lesson, I think some guys from another class got on Mr Robert's nerves so he went up to them and kind of scolded them. This is the first time I've seen Mr Roberts so angry before. This is also the first time I've seen Mr Roberts discipline his students. He looks really scary...

Then come Wednesday. I skipped EM Lecture, as usual, and went straight for BCS Tutorial. Had a presentation but managed to skip it because there was too little slides xD So only Joce and Adelena presented xD Actually, Adelena is more of read from the slides done by Farid, without much elaboration. Then after BCS Tutorial, practised the JL1 Role Play with Xian and Maine. After that, time for JL1 Lesson!! Had the E-AssessmentI(Listening Comprehension) in the first part of the lesson and then the Role Play after that. I think I can pass the E-Assessment but I think I was alittle too nervous for the Role Play=.= It's like we are the second group and I was so freaking nervous that I forget that "a re" is far from both parties and even walk over to the "item" and pointed=.= Argh=(( I sux=(( After that, helped Deep's group because I didn't want to stay in the cold tutorial room. After JL1 Lesson ended, I waited for Joce and Farid and we met up with Naz and went of to LTR2 together to listen to the General Studies introduction thing. After that, had the first JL1 Remedial Lesson xD Actually, I didn't have to go. But I thought I go for fun, maybe I can learn some new stuff and as the lesson goes, my brain can generate questions that might help me in the upcoming JL1 Common Test. I hope I can do well in it and pull up my overall JL1 score to a B at least.

Then yesterday. ALL lessons were cancelled because it's the end of PED LOLs! So I had nothing except for the SP2 Exhibition at 3pm. So Mum dragged me to Malaysia with her, my maternal GrandMum, my Aunt and my Uncle. This is the first time I went to Malaysia and back within half a day LOLs! It was a rush as I had to rush to school by 3pm for the Exhibition. I was slightly late but luckily, the judges were just only starting their rounds when I reached. When the judges came, we then presented our poster and model to them. Our judges are Mr Roberts and Mr Yong xD Hopefully, we can do well=X After our presentation ended, the whole class go around taking photos LOLs! I took so many photos that my mouth and cheeks were numb from all the smiling LOLs!! We also took a class photo. This is the first class photo we took with Mr E, our new and temporary PEM. I hope Miss Lilian can hurry up and get well soon so that she can faster join us in many future photos to come. I really miss her=(((

Then it's FRIDAY!!!! LOLs!! Another day of having the one and only pathetic lesson LOLs!! Somemore only ONE PATHETIC HOUR!!! Tuesday, at least it's like a 2hour lecture but today, it's only ONE hour!!!!!! Nevermind, last BCS Lecture. Today, Mdm Sheila wrap up the BCS Lectures and gave us many exam tips xD After that, I had brunch with Deeps, JJ, Boss, Gid and Gary. Then, we went to Gid's house. It was like 5guys and me the only girl went to Gideon's house=.= But Gary begged Gid to invite me along because the guys want to play soccer and Gary don't play soccer. Was surprised upon seeing Gid's house LOLs!! It's so FREAKING dirty!!! OMGGML!!! It's like so dirty that I feel so lucky that my Mum is cleans up the house every week and is constantly nagging at me to keep my room neat and tidy. OMTL=.= I have NEVER seen such a dirty house before as the Mums that I know are all clean freaks. Even if they have no time to clean up, they would hire a maid to clean the house up. OMTL=X After the guys had enough of playing at Gid's house, we all went to watch the ToothFairy at AMK Hub together. I shared popcorn with Gary and Boss. After the movie ended, we went home. Had loads of fun today LOLs!! From the point I reach school where I found Gid and HK playing with the light from the OHP, to the trip to Gid's house when we constantly discussed about the upcoming Taiwan Trip and what KokYew sees in girls and his fetishs, to the time spent at Gid's house laughing about Boss unlucky day (He fell while playing soccer and hurt his left leg quite badly LOLs! He was like moaning in pain LOLs!!!), to the movie with the 5guys LOLs!! I was a very fun day^.^ I wish Joce was here too. It'll be more fun with her around too. Went home after the movie and told Mum about Gid's house. He asked me to suggest to Gid to hire her as the cleaner and she go his house to clean up every week LOLs!! Then she can earn some money LOLs!! This is so crappy LOLs! But I think my Mum would faint while cleaning up Gid's house LOLs!! It's like she's already complaining about having to clean up my room and Gid's house is worse than my room LOLs!! ALOT worser LOLs!!

Have been sleeping very early for the past few nights. It's like I'm in bed and snoring by 9pm every night. Mum is like saying how miraculous this is LOLs!! And it seems like my body has adjusted to that too because I have been yawning since 8.30pm today LOLs!! I think I have to go sleep now=(( Tomorrow is start of the mugging weeks for the upcoming Final Exams and Common Tests. I hope I can do really well in them=X
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Happy stuff may come in pairs but so does unhappy stuff. Now, it's like I'm not sure whether I should be feeling that my classes are finally ending or unhappy about the lies=((( *Sigh* How I wish my path can be guided.

Fainted last night again I think. Woke up in the middle of the night with Mum sleeping in my room, a headache, a dizzy feeling and my left arm in pain. After that, I couldn't sleep anymore because of my painful arm=((( *Sigh* My body is so weak=((( So weak that I can't take much stuff anymore=((( *Sigh*

Feeling so tired. How I wish I can sleep...
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Funny how so many people think that I'm optimistic hahahas!

Changed my MSN personal message last night. Boss came to talk and ask me what suicidal project. I guess he's worried... He's the only one that isn't too optimistic about my personal message LOLs! I applaud him but sadly, I wouldn't tell him the truth so I lied to him=((( Feel so guilty=((( Sorry Enoch Boss=((( He's the best boss! He even tried cheering me up LOLs!! Thanks Boss^^He should be the CEO LOLs!! Sadly, I'm still on my suicidal project.

Today started with rain. Took a cab to school. The uncle is nice^^ He tried to get me to school as fast as possible despite the jam and rain=D I guess nervousness was also written all over my face because he keep cracking jokes with me LOLs! Such a crappy cab driver hahahas!

Miss Sheila started the BCS Lecture as usual with tips. Was quite lonely as Joce and Farid wasn't there. Signed for Joce but didn't dare to sign for Farid because I'm such a failure at it=((( However, they BOTH didn't come in the end=.= Sorry Farid=(((

Went to Koufu with Xian, Evan, Moon and HK. They were all eating Koufu breakfast set. It look so delicious=((( However, I can't eat due to my dieting plan. So I on-ed my lappy and go and see my SP2 slides. Then Punit came online and we chatted. Then he said he have a surprise for me, crapped alittle and then he send me an image. Realised that it is his JAE Application after receiving it. Sadness flooded all over me after I read through it. It's because right at the first choice, it's C73:CPT. I can't believe he chose my course. He told me it's his last choice! I think my lecturers will be happy LOLs! I got a talented person into the course hahahas! But I'm not really happy because it'll be inconvenient for him, as proved by Naz who stays in the same area as him. He is sure to get in here as his L1R4 is half of the current COP! I feel like such a shitty person for praising NYP too much in front of him=((( I hope that he'll be happy when he comes.

Left Koufu after breakfast and went to the library to touch up on our SP2. Then went to P7 to change and rehearse. We were interrupted in the mid-rehearsal and have to move into P711 for the presentation. Was really nervous so I forgot alot of my points but luckily, I was able to calm down enough to explain the mode of operation slide fully. I think it is the only slide that I manage to complete totally or so. But I was kind of sad because I was too short and wasn't able to point at the image properly even though I had a pointer=((( Hope I can get an A for SP2 even though I feel I screwed up the presentation in nervousness. Then it was Moon's group's turn. After that, Mdm Chua suddenly realised she forgot to ask us a question LOLs! So she asked as Fariani's group set up. Found the answer in one of Xian's many research and with the help of Boss and JiaJun and the guidance of Mdm Chua, we managed to answer the question=D Cheers!! Then it was the rest of the groups' turns. The Pump Presentation was quite amusing; The Crystallizer and Chromatography was quite proffessional. I missed out the rest as I accompany Naz and Joce to the South Canteen=(((

Saw Jon at the canteen LOLs! At first only saw his back when he was buying BBTea. Then after that, he walked in my direction while Naz and Joce was buying. Didn't see him at first as I was stoning. Looked up suddenly, saw him and waved=D He was drinking BBTea. Then Joce said she wants to drink Lime and Lemon Sunrise so we went to buy. It's so nice that we are all addicted to it LOLs!! And since it's sour, it fits what the doc ask me to consume xD Then we went back into class and they were having a break. Ahmin and Gary came over LOLs! Gary was like staring at me so I asked what's up. He said:"Wahh! You wear till so formal sia..." LOLs him! Then he commented that my skirt looks so short. But as I was sitting up, I stood up and show him the real length. LOLs! Then he said:"It looks so short when you were seated LOLs!" Then after that, I went to change. Was late for KahHui's group's presentation so we didn't enter. Farid, Joce and I was bored so we went to buy Farid's lime and lemon sunrise(LALS). When we went back, the presentation over so HK and us were like playing outside P711 LOLs! HK was imitating the Cold Storage advertisement LOLs!! He look so retarded! After KahHui's group end their presentation, we went back in. JiaJun, Fiq and Deeps were like shouting encore and stuff because we were back LOLs!!! So funny. Then the whole class turned into photo-maniacs LOLs!! We keep taking photos hahahas!!

After I got enough of photo-taking, Farid, Joce and I went home. And here I am now, typing this 3hour post LOLs!!
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P.S. Hope my suicidal project will succeed xD Naz thought it was SP2 LOLs!! How I wish...
I forgive his actions but I don't know whether I can accept him and will we be able to be like before after this. I hope I'll be gracious enough but I don't know whether I'll really be so. I guess I can continue to try, after all, my forgiveness doesn't necessary come together with forgetfulness.

Chao lao means chao lao...no matter how much u act cute,u'll still b chao lao in ppl's eyes. Fat means fat...no matter how much u act thin by wearing clothes dat make u look thinner,u'll still b fat in ppl's eyes. Even if u have a million ex-bfs/gfs,u'll still look e same 2 outsiders. Beta 2 noe nw dan ltr in life I guess.

Her words stabbed rite thru my heart. I tot I wuld just collapse there n bleed 2 death. Budden sadly, I din. So I shall go on some suicidal project. Aft all, I'm alrdy dead...makes no diff 2 me.
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Damn tired today=((( I'm practically crashed on my chair right now LOLs!

There's a PED Class Test tomorrow on Block Diagrams, PFD and P&ID. Hope I can pass and get at least a C...or maybe a B. However, my QC is probably a failure so I think I might lose the C average from last semester. However, I'll continue to pray as I still have a last shot at getting a minimum of C average in all my subjects as the Common Tests for QC and PED and the ICA2 for JL1 isn't over yet. So hopefully, I can maintain or improve this semester^^

Think I have to sleep already. "Too nuah liaos" LOLs!!
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LoveDieYouPeeps HAHAHAHA LOLs!!!

YAY TO MY NEW HIGHLIGHTS!!!xDDD

Flooded by homework recently=((( It's so boringT_T I'm like doing homework all the timeT_T I guess I forgotten how the last few weeks of the semester is like: flooded by work LOLs!

So tired=(((
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BoredT_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T

Doing JL1 homework till I'm so bored. Thanks to Gracie for entertaining me for awhile. However, Tony is still more important than me so I guess, it can only be awhile=((

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Ling, Jon, Anni and Hon all aren't online. No one to entertain me on MSN=((((

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I'm going crazy LOLs!
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Today is the lamest of all days LOLs!!

Wake up at like 8am LOLs! Did my last PFD Assignment and went to school. Had like 2hours of PED Tutorial then end already hahahahahaha!!! I was like playing Pokemon Gold most of the time=X The lesson started with student feedback and then when most of the students appeared for class, Mr E started the class=D They were like sabotaging KuanKo in the student feedback. I didn't manage to though=((( I accidentally clicked submit before I could type anything into the comment box=.= So sadT_T

Then went to Sun Plaza with Joce. We ate Carvana Nasi Lemak and I bought bendy straws. I tried using them to make a heart but the turn out isn't too good. However, maybe I can do something. Still thinking about it.

Then we went to Northpoint. The new Northpoint is like so confusing=.= We keep going around in circles LOLs! We walked pass this place called the Baby Spa. There were babies swimming around in the small bathtubs in the shop LOLs!! Then there was this baby. I think the shopkeeper couldn't put the swimming tube around him/her properly because the tube was only put around his/her neck LOLs! So the poor baby was like floating around with his/her head held up by the tube while the rest of his/her body was inside the water. OMGGM! Joce and me laughed till we had a stomachache LOLs! Then we walked pass the money changer. So we thought we check the current exchange rate between SGD and NT. The computer showing the rates was like changing very fast so we only got a short time to read LOLs! Then Joce read as 22,3000 while I read 22.3000. LOLs! Then I was like:"If it's a comma, then 1SGD=22,3000NT LOLs! We bring 1SGD enough to sustain our shopping craze LOLs!!!" Then we two laughed till stomachache again LOLs! We also bought some tidbits to eat during the movie"Daybreaker".

Then we went to AMK Hub. Met Enoch and JiaJun there. Apparently Naz,Deeps and Fiq took bus while the other 2 of them took MRT. So we had to wait for the 3 of them before we can buy the tickets. Luckily, we still managed to get the tickets xD Then we watched Daybreaker. IT IS AWESOME!!! But alittle scary to me LOLs! It has alittle gore too=X No wonder it is NC16 LOLs! It was like before we enter the theatre, Naz thought the guy will check our IC to see whether we are 16 or not LOLs! Then the guy standing there was like shaking his head as she took out her IC LOLs! Then we were like laughing at her LOLs!!! Deeps was like:"Do we look that young?!" Then the guys started to give each other fake ages LOLs!! It was like so hilarious and we were laughing till we all had a stomachache LOLs! The movie is totally AWESOME but I was so scared by the start of the movie that I was trembling throughout the rest of the movie. The parts where there were music that causes suspense caused me to hide behind my bag LOLs! There was one part that caused me to nearly puke out everything I ate LOLs! OMGGM! I'm so weak=.=

We met Fariani and gang after the movie. Apparently they were sitting behind us LOLs! Then I went to play Gachapon and got a male coffee coloured dog xD It's so cute and now it is handing beside my white coloured dog xD They look so cute together<3

Then we all went home. See Dad's bandaged foot the first thing I step into the house. Asked him what happened but he wouldn't tell me=((( Asked Mum and she said he hurt himself somehow during work and went to the doc's earlier today. I guess I better hurry up and graduate so that Dad can retire=X

Anyway, need to go bathe and then find my Onix xD

I'm totally bored out of my mind.

Got all my common test results already=D A for EM; A for BCS; A for OC xDDD So happy about it xDDD

Today OC Lecture was like super short. Only about half an hour inclusive of the time he took to show us our CT results. It was a miracle that I get 85/100 LOLs! I know I could have gotten a better score because I know I made a mistake in one of the essay question. I confused Grignard's Synthesis of Alcohol with Williamson's Synthesis of Ethers. Maybe Mr Roberts was kind enough and gave me some for writing "Williamson's Synthesis of Ethers" LOLs! I doubt so though hahaha! But I know I could have done alot better.

Anyway, OC lecture ended in like 45minutes(?) and Joce, Farid and I made our way to the locker to dump our labcoats. I was like walking and texting till we reach the locker. Then suddenly, Joce was like:"Isn't that your friend?" I looked and I saw Jon walked pass me. It was like LOLs! I called him and was like complaining he didn't see me. I also got complain to Ling. Then I kind of emo till I reach home LOLs!

Then wanted to K.O. then suddenly Julia called me. She bombarded me with question about courses and stuff lols! Was like going to sleep then she called for 1hour++ LOLs! Finally, at 6pm+, she hung up and then I went to nap awhile.

Woke up at around 8pm+ for dinner and bath. I also helped Mum with the mopping of the floor and washing of the dishes LOLs! Then went to play Pokemon Gold LOLs!! It's so L-O-L.

So tired=(( Have to sleep soon=(((
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NYP OPEN HOUSE 2010 ROX xD

Had to wake up early in the morning for lessons today=((( Stupid PED lecture starts at 8.30am=((( Saw Evan upon arrival. Also saw and wished Enoch=D It's his birthday today xD HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOSS^^May you continue your Bossie streak in C1 this year xD LOLs! Then after XiuXian came, we went to prank NochNoch. We gave him a box full of styrofoam balls and his "present". He thought there will be something inside that will shock him or something so he didn't dare to plunge his hand in to take the "present" LOLs! However, in the end, we manage to convince him that it was nothing and so he manage to find it. The expression he wore after he open up the scroll of paper was classic LOLs! It was a OC Lab Sheet wrapped in leftover wrapping paper LOLs! He was like:"What the hell? What is this LOLs!" Then Gideon was like teasing him hahaha!! After that, Miss Lim came him and start the lecture. So we didn't get the chance to give him his real present, a pillow, till after the lecture.

The PED Lecture was really lame=.= It was like only from around 8.30am to around 9am excluding the attendance taking time and explanation about the test on Week14 LOLs! So after PED ended, Xian, Evan and me went to see Mdm Chua about our SP2 Poster. She gave somemore ideas before leaving for her open house duty. Then I went to Macs for breakfast with Joce, Naz and Farid before going to Q420 for my open house duty.

Q420 was empty except for Fiq when Naz and I reached. So we went around preparing the cabbage for making the Flavin pH indicator. The rubber gloves made my hands slippery after contact with water. Then the beaker was like really heavy and so my hands slipped while setting it down and it got set down on the table too hard=((( The beaker broke and out came the water=.=All of it that was inside the beaker. I looked like I pee on the floor LOLs!! It shows how dirty the floor is. So I mopped the floor while Deeps and JiaJun helped me with the glass pieces. Mr Lai was like supervising LOLs! After that, Fiq, Naz, Mr Lai and I re-prepare the cabbage solution again. Then we played around with the HCl and NaOH before stupid Mr Roberts came up and said that they need more help at the atrium and to send one person down. So we "Scissors, Paper, Stone" then I went down. Boon went through the same thing so we were stuck at the Atrium together, introducing courses and stuff LOLs! Actually, I think that is more fun than the Lab thing. I heard that the Lab was quite empty. Not many people went to the Lab according to Xian. I even met a girl that lives opposite my block LOLs! After my shift ended, I went Macs wif Xian,KahHui and Moon. Then we went around the Open House to "see see look look". I feel that on overall, the open house is quite fun=D I hope it is as fun at the other Polytechnics=D

YAY!!! I FINALLY MANAGED TO GET MY BLOGSKIN TO WORK IN OTHER BROWSERS! xD I think lesson time is the only time my brain works LOLs!! It's like I tried so hard at home but I just can't seem to figure out what is wrong with my blogskin. However, during BCS Tutorial, I managed to find and correct the problem!! xD Yay manns!! xDDD

Also I had fun learning how to play Monopoly Deal from Boss and JiaJun. They taught me after BCS Tutorial ended xD It's quite fun hehes=D

Still am coughing like nobody's business today=(( Hope it'll help me earn a MC some time this week then I can do my homework. It's like I'm really struggling alot in my JL1=(((

Just know the results for my first half of the semester for JL1=D I got a C+ xD Although I didn't get what I want but for a module that I'm struggling so much in, I feel I did quite well xD Was quite surprise at the ICA1 score actually LOLs! Also had fun during class hehehe=D However, it was still quite a struggle=(( I hope I'll be able to get at least a B for overall. I guess I need to put in more effort for my JL1, PED and QC. Hope by leaving the QC Lab Reports to Boss, I can scrape a B for QC.

So tired=(( Havn't manage to finish up my Valentines' Day Presents=(( Hope I'll be able to finish them on time=D And also pass them to the recepients=D
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I wish I can be so indifferent about this=((( Or at least as indifferent as I seem.
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My last day of holiday!!!

Didn't do much today. Woke up by Dad's constant walking around the house early this morning. Then as I was finally getting some sleep, Ling text me LOLs! Reply her messages for about an hour before seriously K.O.-ing. Woke up at around 10am+ by Mum's screaming. Took a shower before heading off to eat breakfast with Mum. Didn't eat breakfast with Dad because today he's going fishing with his friends.

After breakfast, conferenced with Ling and Jon. We conferenced the whole day LOLs! We did homework together and keep each other company. I also spent the day frequently helping Mum to massage her back. I guess age is catching up on her and so she has been having frequent backaches=((( Haish=((( I'm guessing soon, I'll be all alone in this world=(((
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Just finished reading Breaking Dawn for the second time. I realised I only really like Eclipse and Breaking Dawn as I hadn't touched them for the second time yet LOLs! Maybe I should...soon

Procrastinating yet again. I guess I wasn't really looking forward to the new semester. I hope I can be braver when I wake up from my nap and go finish up the minor homeworks.

Ruined my ArchMage(I/L) account yet again. This time, I locked myself out of it. I guess I can only wait patiently and hope for the best. I seriously hope to get it back. Then Mum can STOP nagging at me about how the effort she spent on her new wizard are all wasted. But at least now I know MapleSEA is just a place where I interact with some of my friends. It is also a place I go to when I'm bored. Now that it's gone, I feel kind of lonely=((( I guess in my eyes, Maple is the same as what it is in my Mum's eyes, just lesser as I have more things to do. Hope this coming vacation can help me with some things.
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P.S. I'm intending on going back to Cineleisure to buy my Baby Angel xD She has been coming up in my dreams lately=.=Can't wait to see and get it<3