It has been a really long three days. Tried finding a reason to laugh but couldn't; tried finding a reason to smile but couldn't; tried finding a reason to eat but couldn't; tried finding a reason to pick myself up and carry on but couldn't. Im quite a failure right? Hahas...even my laugh doesn't seem mine anymore.
Vincent scolded me time and again but I just can't change my negative attitude. So instead, I stop talking to him. It will save both of us alot of trouble: him from scolding me and me from listening to him scold me.
That day Dad came home and shouted at me. Talked back abit before shutting myself in my room to cry. Wanted to call BC but, I don't know why, I didn't. I guess it's because I don't want to bother him, after all, he's not the same old BC anymore.
Mum must have been quite relieve these 3days. Feel so moodless that I hardly touch my phone. However, feeling moodless also mean I'm careless and moody. Yesterday accidentally smashed my phone. Now I'm back to using my N73. I'm practically doing nothing but homework, school, TV, toilet, sleep and eat. I guess I've lost my interest to life. I think things will be better after "O" Levels. I got alot of confidence to gain back, and of cause, my happiness.
Even though I still get to talk to BC but I still misses him. Sad for me. I guess I will be fine. He made so many promises; gained my trust and confidence, and he throw them away, just like that. I feel so disappointed, betrayed and sad.*Sigh*Just like wad Kun says: Pain is what we call Love. Love really hurt alot. I currently only believe in God's love. I guess he will sort my life out soon enough.^^
Anyway,gtg~Byes~Good days ahead!^^
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