4:43 PM
Thursday, July 31, 2008
4:08 PM
~Reflection Time!!~x33qQ
Realise dat when sth is owaes arnd me...I will usually nt rly appreciate dat sth...but when dat sth is gone...den I realise how impt dat thing is 2 me...my parents is e best eg...it was till lyk sec2 when my parents may divorce den I start 2 rly appreciate my parents more...den last yr...when I start having seizures...realising dat I might just die lyk any second...den I start seeing e ppl arnd me n rly appreciating dem...but seriously...a leopard cant chgn its spots man...den along came BY...din appreciate his understanding...din even rly appreciate his love 4 me...playing arnd...go out wif my frens...leaving him alone...lyk I dunhav bf liddat...den lost BY...den freaking realise dat he has bcome a part of my life aredy...so much dat I din realise dat he's here...quote frm Ge Dou Tian Wang...he's lyk e air...owaes surrounding me...till I start 2 take him 4 granted? Den when he left...den realise...how much I nid him arnd me...hais...but it was too l8...but nvm...lyk wad Daphy Darling n RayRay AiAi says...I NEED 2 gt over it...so thx 2 dem...I did...den is my frens...ppl lyk Sann,WeiQun n Sean hu kinda stuck 2 me no matter how much I scream at dem n wadeva...I was even so evil dat I blocked WeiQun=X Ok...I suck=.=Den nw dat Sann hardly dun tok 2 me n sumtyms even nt at all...den I realise how much I nid her arnd me...2 nag at me...2 quarrel wif me...2 scream at me...2 make me laugh wif her alibaba-ness...but anotha l8 1...I guess wad I nid 2 do nw is appreciate e reamining frens I hav by my side...sumtyms I even realise dat I duno how love e ppl arnd me...so I said alot of bad things 2 BC ytd...it's lyk spite him...but just dat I guess wo xiang ba ta gan zou...but nvm...I duntink he rly cared...although I'm having my doubts...but since I trust him 100%, I shall trust him tis 100% again...he said he was playing wif me...n so shall it b...hahas...
NO WORDS CAN XPRESS MY LOVE 4 MY FAMILY...4 MY FRENS...4 MY BFS...I LOVE U GUYS MANNX33qQ
11:04 PM
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
I tink theres a misunderstanding...my bdae dat pouch...I love it...cos yeye ask me so I tink I nid clarify
E pouch is auntie-ish is my MUM say derhs...den e part its auntie Victoria is joke lai derhs...sorry 4 any misunderstanding n hurt causedT_T Honestly=X Victoria seriously an auntie 2 me...auntie as in ah yi nt dat ba sha mai cai dat auntie yarhs...lyk e best n cheapest deals she noe larhs...super handy 2 hav her arnd^^Shes a GREAT n WONDERFUL fren too^^Aft Sann n Shihong is her lorhs...I thank her 4 planning my tis yr bdae^^I love it thx^^
Anywaes...I nearly 4gotten...I noe its a past but I wan say THANKS TO ALL DAT CELE MY BDAE WIF N 4 ME^^THX ALOT!! LOVE U GUYS N GALS^^<33Muacks n Hug xD
10:52 PM
BY THE WAY~JianWei is tai jian xD
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
i see this C}!
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
getting more and more pissed off liao
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
feel like jus spamming her
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
dam kp sia she
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
dun worry
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
i blocked her
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
no use one
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
she can always use another comp
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
and type
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
den i block again lorhs
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
aiya she is really pathetic
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
and contradicitng
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
she act so big
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
yet dun wan show her face in school
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
she say dun wan flame u, yet she still kip on flaming
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
and somemore only know how to say looks
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
show her face la, see how pretty she is
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
chill
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
ni zai ji she me
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
lol im chilled
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
huang shang bu ji tai zi ji
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
i think she really damn funny sia
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
im huang shang
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
u r tai ji
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
XD
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
actually it is
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
tai jian
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
not tai ji
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
OMG
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
u saying u r tai jian
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
no
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
the phrasing is
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
tai jian ji
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
not
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
is tai zi*
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
the phrasing itself is tai jian
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
aiya wadever la
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
she hor
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
LOLs
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
i chgn 2 tai zi
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
really see liao yue lai yue bs
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
cos u arent tai jian
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
n u go correct
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
oh
*Minister strings in trance* Dew,Me,Aaron and Lijia forms the tyco group!! ^^ says:
LOLS
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
den u saying u tai jian
♥stevieQ.Q♥????????????????,????????????????,????????????????????♥??????????????????????????JIAYOUing in Os♥God please light up my path♥Ichirin no Hana♥ says:
LOLs
10:43 PM
OMGAWD IM IN LOVE WIF CAI HONG AGAIN!!! But I lost e lyricsT_T E 1 in my phone sent 2 me by RayRayT_T FUCK! I tink I dat tym deleted it out of anger n sadness...FUCK!!! AHHT_T Can RayRay send me e lyrics again? Show dat u r still here by my sideT_T I thank Brian 4 teaching me tis song n RayRay 4 singing 2 me xD
SOMEONE SEND ME E LYRICS OF CAI HONG BY JAY CHOU BY SMS PLS T_T I pray dat dat some1 is Rayray LOLs...still rmb dat funny guy sent me dat n ask me w8 4 him cos he will lessen his contact wif me...I threw tantrum n I tink I del dat msgT_T I AM SORRY RAYMOND SIM T_T Pls 4giv meT_T
Im gonna call Daphy darling everyday mannnn...HER BYEBYERINGRING IS CAI HONG LARHS!!! OMGAWD...IM SO IN LOVE lols...
10:02 PM
I feel lyk using KJ's blogskin...fk mannns
9:09 PM
GRATS AMOS ON HIS 2ND BABY WIF HIS GF!! Kao ehhs...hes an envy 2 childless ppl siahs...anywaes...2nd baby at 16yrs old lehs...shuld b nxt yr born...so correction...2nd baby at 17yrs old...omg...CONGRATULATIONS!!
8:16 PM
Is tis e feeling of a broken heart?
Is tis how I feel when dreams r shattered?
Feel lyk my body has been torn up...so painful...stupid shuttle run's fault...but at least I din fail shuttle run xD
Fell in love wif e song Your Love is a Lie by Simple Plan...papa's fault=.=Ok...my fault 4 reading his blog LOL
Skipping dinner tdy...aredy skipped...I dunid 2 force myself eat dinner lyk e past liaos...its lyk damn irritating lorhs...dun feel lyk eating...but cos I promised so I ate...nw Im free 2 choose whether I wan 2 eat lols...super cool luhs...mayb ltr I will eat a l8 dinner? Lols...dun giv a damn...
I noe dat Your Love is a Lie so I was lying 2 u too...frm e start...I hav been just playing along...u were honestly just a substitute 2 me n I was just a substitute 2 u...face it...u r as bad as me...no...u r worse...at least I tried 2 understand wad u were saying...ok...nt rly frm e start...lyk u abit at e start but realise dat u were lying...I started getting over u...preparing 4 tdy...so yarhs...
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QQ
7:00 PM
Tdy SUCK=.=Nw I realise how much I love sku=.=
Tdy ponned sku wif Crystal. We were l8 mahs. E bus came l8 den we l8 lorhs=X So we 2 went 2 slack arnd at AMK. We started at AMK Macs. We met Shermin there LOLs. We slacked there n I did abit of hmwk...nt rly abit...is oni ONE lols...Geog article wich was supposedly due tdy=X Den we walked 2 Jubilee n AMK Polyclinic derh kopitiam w8 4 XiaHan...but aft dat Crystal say XiaHan nt coming=.=So we slept abit at e kopitiam den we walk back 2 AMK Macs n stayed there till arnd 12+ den we walk back 2 Jubilee n den homeward. Seriously if tym tdy can go any slower...I feel it wun b moving at all=.=SUCK lyk shit=.=
Reach home slp...had rly weird dreams...weird dreams dat r scary so gt wake up frm tym 2 tym...den just nw den woke up...mum ask me wake up do hmwk...
On MSN...gt BC's off9 msg...was speechless aft reading it...den cyberbb daddy sms me...aft reading...felt so much lyk crying...damn shit...I wish Im dead nw...mayb tdy's bad karma will b so serious dat I will die? I rly hope so
Tdy smsed Jorden,Daphy Dar,Tim Gor n Vincent...Daphy Dar was lyk complaining dat she gt classes frm 2-7...Jorden classes started at 12pm so we stop msg frm 12pm...Tim gor no sku cos he nt having exam tdy=.=Lucky him...Vinny no reply me...shit him=.=Tink he will call me again lyk at 2am in e morning? He love doing dat 2 me=.=
Wish I can do lyk wad cyberbb daddy said...if I can...my heart wun hurt so much...I wun feel lyk crying n dying...
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QQLeEmoGurl
6:01 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
I SUSPECT IM GOING LOONY LERHS! But I HONESTLY felt beta aft turning cheena 4 a 1hr n type e previous post n ALSO tok 2 LoveMeBol aka Jorden. Till last nite, I tot his name is spelt as j-o-r-d-a-n. BUT! Ytd gt e tym n ask him add my msn. It was den I noe dat his name is spelt as j-o-r-d-E-n LOLs...dumbo me...rly is Zhu siahs...you ben you lan duo!
Speaking of ZhuZhu...I rmbed RayRay AiAi LOLs...dat faggot AiAi I gt muAhahahas LOLs...ps I super high nw. Cos I currently using my N73 cox my N81 8GB e screen crack n I havnt go send 4 repair. Anyway, I just nw bored on e bus. Jorden no reply my msg mahs den I bored so were reading my old msgs. Apparently I read dat ZhuZhu AiAi RayRay's msgs 1st LOLs...He sent me lyk OVER 400 msgs cann?! Most of dem r love msgs=.=Anyway, I felt my spirit lift aft reading some lorhs. Rmb e happy days I had wif him...I hope me n him rly can turn back. Cos 4 some reason, he cant tok 2 me. I hope tis tym absence will make e heart fonder n when we r back tgt in e hols, whether as frens or wadeva, we can b real close. I rly miss him alot...but I guess he gt a reason. 4 dat Im sad but I will still giv him my blessings n well wishes forever, whereva he is. Im w8ing e tym when he's back wif me...but meanwhile, I shall survive on my own^^Misses his voice alot but I guess I can do nth while he's nt here. Hope he will b fine n our frenship will last 4eva...hope God will kip tis frenship safe
Anywaes, even though me n BC r no longer BGF, I wuld love 2 continue b his fren. Rly hope dat me n him can b frens 4eva...hope God can kip tis frenship of mine safe too
Can feel my social circle shrinking. Or can say my popularity is decreasing lorhs. I dun hope dat my popularity rise or social circle xpand. But I rly hope dat it doesn't shrink cos I love my frens lyk I love myself. Losing dem is painful 2 me...its lyk having a knife stabbed in2 me...very painful.
Ok...can feel my highness decreasing liaos...but I will high back when I listen 2 You Love is a Lie by Simple Plan. IT ROCKS!! LOLs...
Ok...gtg~may post again=.=Depends...alot of things 2 do by tmrT_T Byes n God Bless
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QQ
12:00 AM
Ok! Feeling too cheena liaos...so I shall type in Hanyu Pinyin
Kan zhe ni li qu de bei ying
Wo cai fa xian ni you duo me de yao yuan
Wo gai zhe me ban ne?
Deng ni ma?
Pao qi ni ma?
Wo zhi dao wo yong yuna dou bu ke neng pao qi ni
Yin wei ni sui ran bu shu yu wo
Ke shi wo yi ran ba ni dan cheng peng you
Zhi yao wo hai ba ni dang cheng peng you
Wo jiu mei ban fa pao qi ni
Ke shi wo you bu ke neng deng ni
Ying wei ni bu shi wo de
Ye ke neng yong yuan bu hui shi wo de
Ting zhe ni de shen ying
You hen duo hua xiang gen ni shuo
Ke shi kai kou que shuo bu chu
Bu shi wo bu xiang shuo
Er shi wo shuo bu chu
Yin wei wo hen hai pa
Pa ni hui xiao wo
Pa ni hui yin ci duo zhe wo
Hen duo de hai pa
Mei you ni zai wo shen bian den ri zi zhen de hen nan guo
Shui ren he wo de peng you wo yi ran xiao de chu
Ke shi bu dong wei she me
Zhe xie xiao zhi bu guo shi na yi xia zi
Wan shang he bie ren tan hua shi
Wo hui xiang qi ni
Wan shang shui bu zhao shi
Wo hui xiang da gei ni he ni shuo huo
Ping shi mei shi zuo shi
Wo hui hen xiang nian ni
Wo bu xiang yao xiang ni
Wo bu xiang yao he ni shuo hua
Ke shi wo bu zhi bu jue hui xiang zhuo zhe xie shi
Xiang zhuo wo men dang shi suo zhuo de shi
Shuo dang shi suo shuo de hua
Wo xiang
Wo xu yao yi xie ri zi shi ying mei you ni de ri zi ba
Xi wang zhe xie shi neng an ding xia lai
Bian cheng yong yuan de hui yi
Dan shi dao na tian qian
Wo hui zai zhe li an jing de deng ni
Wo bu shi zai dui ni bao zhe xi wang
Er shi yin wei wo hai mei xi guan mei ni de ri zi
Qing bu yao wu hui
Yin wei wo zhuo de dao de
Wang ji ni
Wo shi zhuo de dao de
Ke shi ru guo ni yao hui tou
Wo da gai hui hai zai zhe li ba
Ru guo bu zai le
Jiu shi wo men de peng you guan xi
Yi jin cheng le ding ju
Ke shi yin wei wo de xing ge
Wo xu yao hen duo shi jian
三公分阳光
三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情
剩下只有脚印
he……
一直向前走
走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事
帮我困住自己
你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光
蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以
住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾
用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以
拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落
不用你回头看
不用珍惜
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事
蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
躲在安静角落
如果你回头看
不用在意
后来,
我总算学会了
如何去爱.
可惜你早已远去,
消失在人海.
后来,
终于在眼泪中明白,
有些人一旦错过就不再.
栀子花,白花瓣,
落在我蓝色百褶裙上.
"爱你"你轻声说.
我低下头闻见一阵芬芳.
那个永恒的夜晚,
十七岁仲夏,
你吻我的那个夜晚,
让我往后的时光,
每当有感叹,
总想起当天的星光.
那时候的爱情,
为什么就能那样简单.
而又是为什么人年少时,
一定要让深爱的人受伤.
在这相似的深夜里,
你是否一样,
也在静静追悔感伤.
如果当时我们能不那么倔强,
现在也不那么遗憾.
你都如何回忆我,
带着笑或是很沉默.
这些年来有没有人能让你不寂寞.
永远不会再重来,
有一个男孩爱着那个女孩.
11:07 PM
Monday, July 28, 2008
I feel lyk freaking screaming at Jordan. NOT my cousin Jordan but dat faggot that keep nagging that I'm Xiao DiDi hunter. Now I listen to Tong Shou Tong Jiao by Landy...I want to cry!! Shit=.=The songs I'm listening to currently is making me super emotional, till I want to cry. But singing my unhappiness out is a good way to release everything. And Vincent Ng is IRRESPONSIBLE! When I was finally going to fall asleep, he called me. The time was 3.40am IN THE MORNING. I nearly cried trying to fall back to sleep. Lately, hasn't been sleeping well. Even when I'm tired, I can't sleep. I just DON'T know why I'm like this. I guess I'm losing sleep because I'm stress over my Prelim2. It's like on 8September and I'm like going to break down from all that stress. I NEED my A1s because I heard from ShuTing Jie that this year new cut off point for Vet Tech is 10points. I need to try VERY HARD or die trying.
Anyway, I shall join the kie family too! I'm a Sing-kie! xD Victoria's fault!!! Lols...ok...I'm always blaming Victoria XD It's fun ok?! Lols...like that time my Prelim1 SS Paper over, I"screamed"at Vic because SHE TOLD ME NOT TO STUDY VENICE!! VENICE IS LIKE IN SEQ AND SO I FAILED SEQ~I GOT 11/25=.=ROFLmaos...Now currently listening to Cheng Zao by Zhang Yu. I know it's some oldie but I'm hooked on oldies now because emo oldies suit my feelings now. I'm like so extreme now. I'm either in hysterics like this afternoon at the MRT laughing till my stomach cramped OR ELSE totally emoing like now. I think I need talk to like 1 of my supports. I realise both Brian and Bryan[OK...that sounds weird]think I'm flirt? On Saturday Bryan just say I sound like I have already recovered from the hurt he has inflicted on me and is flirting as usual. Brian scolded me flirt when we broke up. If I'm a flirt, I certainly didn't realise that. Anyway, I havn't recover from the pain of losing BC but I guess I need to. Maybe I should listen to Bei Ying by Yoga Lin more. However, flirt has its good. At least they will never be emotionally tied down like me. Nevermind, I like who I am and I forever will be? I don't know. And today topics of discussion is relationships or what? First was Vincent, then is Vic and HuiMei. HuiMei was talking about her sister and her sister's boyfriend. Apparently we met him on the way to Cheers. Vic talked about her cousin and stuffs. Lols...I was like"Wo de lian qing bu chao guo liang ge yue!"Lols...I'm suppose to be like proud or something...because I'm certainly starting to feel the blues. Shit=.=
Anyways, this is to HuiMei.
From HuiMei's Blog>>but sadly qiuhui had to go off earlyso we missed part of the fun that was suppose to be there.
From me to her>>Ah Mei arhs~I think is I miss out the fun and not you guys. I think you guys really had loads of fun without me. It might not have been as fun as me there. Anyway, YOU GUYS ROCKS FOR THROWING YEYE WITH HIS KOF~! LOLs...he's gonna kill me for this statement xD Anyway, YOU HINT IS SO DAMN OBVIOUS! DON'T WORRY, I WILL SAVE LOADS OF MONEY AND CHIP IN FOR ANOTHER NEW BAG FOR HER NEXT YEAR LOLs.
Ok! I think I don't want wait for Di anymore. Byes all and Good nights
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QQ
8:20 PM
Feeling SUPER cheena nw cos v.emoish hahas...but I promised JianMing Di dat I will try n laugh or smile...whether its 4 him or myself...di alot of dat tdy so felt more or less myself...although e laugh n smile still nt v.my own but its still a start...4 1s in many mths...I laugh till my stomach cramped LOLs...thx 2 e"kie kie"Victoria LOLs...
Din c Wilson nor Jansen early in e morning...I usually wun c dem on Mondays so wasn't rly surprised dat I saw neither of dem...anywaes...met Crystal n went 2 sku complaining lols...we 2 owaes liddat on Monday...Monday blues mahhhs...lols
My mood took a chgn when I reach sku...HuiMei high mahs...den we all high tgt LOLs...me n Sann as usual cold...shes lyk more of sociable nw...gd 4 her^^although I might hav lost her tis best fren but she din lose me as a best fren cos I has owaes n will owaes treat her as my best fren...
Maths class! Joey took my Paper2 2 copy lols...he apparently oso realise dat he left his SS at home LOLs...looks lyk hes gonna gt it frm 2tchers LOLs...Mr Tan n Miss Goh hahas...den did e ACS paper...copied abit frm LiuRan LOLs...at least I gt anotha tcher xD In sku is LiuLiu...at home is pik up my hp n call papa LOLs...ok...Im irritating...sad thing is I TOMORROW GOT REMEDIAL!! SHIIIIIIIT manns...LOLs...tmr cant slp in e noon liaosT_T
Den Bio...Mr Chandra is lyk chionging our Bio lorhs...anywaes...sat bside Claraaye instead of Sann...n as usual...Seminar rm is so damn cold so was lyk damn relieve when Bio end...n Mr Chandra sadist lehhhs...hes gonna giv us a pop quiz every Thurs...if we fail...he will make us copy e WHOLE chpt out...den XT joke dat we frm nw on everyday copy 1pg...den by e tym...can hand up liaos...LOLs...sounds retarded but dats 4H...
Den recess nth special...except dat I was abit isolatedT_T Sadistic...den chiong 4 HCL class n wad happen?! Miss Choi come ltr dan us...den goble my food 4 nth=.=
HCL class tok abt e Liao Zai...den Qian Nvu You Hun...wa kao...den e theme song start playing in my head...den I sing frm HCL till SS...n still is singing it aft sku n stuff LOLs...
Den SS...SBQ test...prepared 2 fail...was still abit dai dai when I start e paper...so tink I did quite badly...n on e way up 2 SS class...Joey was lyk DAMN high...cos firstly he manage 2 copy e paper2 till Qns6 n may nt nid 2 stay back 4 A.maths aft all...but sadly nid 4 SS LOLs...n secondly...he"flirted"wif Cheryl frm Sec2 n gt 3sweets...as usual dat baddie kangaroo dowan gimme...wonder whose e stupid person dat let him copy her hmwk siaaaahhhhs...LOLs...ingrate! Hahas...nxt tym dun lend him my hmwk liaos xD Nahs...Im nt evil LOLs...
Den Eng class...went thru PLMGS paper...receive a hmwk call summary...sobsT_T I hate summary...in fact...e Anderson Sec paper she gave...I oso nvr do summary=X Shes gonna scold me=.=But I had summary trgn frm Miss Kumari last yr liaos...till I hate summary 2 e core...den Miss Chionh was complaining shes having e Monday Blues n dun feel lyk coing 2 sku n teach...den sum1 just retorted"Den dun come...we'll welcome dat"LOLs...
DEN END OF SKU~~Gt remedial but dowan go=X Mayb nxt wk bahs...dun feel lyk seeing Mr TanBS tdy...so skipped remedial n went gallavanting arnd e sku wif HuiMei...visited DaDa Chua at e D&T workshop...manns...miss dat place...miss Home Ec rm tooT_T Super long tym no go those 2places larhs...den helped DaDa Chua abit...Joshua was there too...hes lyk funny larhs...wan help DaDa wif e scroll saw den aft trying...turn 2 her n say spoil liaos....LOLs...den went back 2 canteen cos HuiMei complained dat shes hungry n wan check whether Vic is out...den reach canteen...QiaoNi say Claraaaye went Physics...lols...guai kia~~N so we w8ed...went Bkshop n buy a few things...Claraaaye appeared den we dcide 2 go Cheers 2 w8 4 Vic...den dey ate cup noodles while I ate bread...Vic came...den theres tis big joke...cos Vic call HongKongers Honkies...den we start tinking wad abt e otha countries derhs...it involves Chikies[China], Antartickies[Antartica]n blahblahblahs...LOLs...we laugh till our sides ache...I was lyk in hysterics larhhs...LOLs...den Val came...den we chatted den went home...O yarhs...n me n Claraaaye had fun"scolding"Vic...SHE TOLD US HUIMEI'S BLOG URL IS LIVA-LICIOUS WHEN ITS LAVI-LICIOUS! LOLs...
Reach home slp bathe n nw blogging lorhs...when bathing...was so emo dat I turned cheena n was lyk tinking up emo poems...ok...dey dun exactly rhyme but my literature owaes hasn't been gd so its just anyhow compose lorhs...its abt how Im feeling...e emoness n stuff...anywaes...gtg liaos...getting emo due 2 emo songs lols...byes n God bless^^
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7:30 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Me and Sann's best-friend friendship officially end today. I'm currently feeling very disappointed, sad and heartbroken. The feeling is worse than with BC. Stupid feeling that sucks to the core.
Now I finally understand 2things: Firstly, ONLY God's promises can be trusted and made to last forever. Promises made by humans CANNOT be trusted and definitely DON'T last forever. Secondly, NOTHING last forever. Only God can make things last forever.
Now I also know what is meant by"sorry no cure". I also understand why Brian ban me from saying sorry. Ok, not really ban, more of scold me and stuffs whenever I said sorry to him. It's like why say sorry. The damage has been done, not like saying sorry will reverse time and/or remove the damage.
Ok, I'm off. Byes all~take care and God bless
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1:40 PM
I need to thank sillyboy hongyu alot. He's like a really good friend. Telling me about funny stuff and stoning with me. However so, his stoning is not really stoning. It's merely talking to me every few minutes.
Anyway, I think I'm sick already. Yesterday, I fainted in the bathroom while bathing. I only remember I felt abit giddy then the next thing I know, Mum is trying to wake me up. Dad scolded me when I'm out. They are like SUPER DAMN worried. Sorry my darling parents for making you worry.
Yesterday was a really cool eye-opener. Got the chance to take part in some taoist ritual. Actually it's not really taking part, more of helping out. Got 1uncle call me and ShuTing jie"Liang ge tie shan xiao gong zhu". Lols...this ShuTing jie is the daughter of 1 of the uncles there. She's 17years old this year and studying at TEMESEK POLYTECHNIC. When I heard that she's from TP, I was like thinking, "another TP friend". Lols...but I don't really mind having more friends and she's kind of friendly^^So yesterday, I also made a new friend!!^^
Yesterday, actually was suppose to go Bugis with Jose, Huimei, Jianwei, Clara and Vic to meet 1 of Jose's friends. Apparently, this friend is"rich". He's so rich that he's treating us for lunch. But I guess me and this guy is not fated to meet. 1st time I'm suppose to meet him was christmas last year. My mum didn't allow me to go out then. 2nd time I'm suppose to meet him was yesterday. My mum say it's too late, I need to go home and go to the taoist ritual thing.
Yesterday, Sann didn't go to school. I felt even more lonelier then usual. I didn't know that she will not be going to school till I reached the school. She didn't even tell me beforehand. I will always tell her beforehand because she tell me to do so. But she didn't and that made me feel, I don't know, distant?
This week get to talk to Bryan twice. Baby daddy and me is like going to leave everything to God. At least we got each other for comfort. Now, I still will think of Bryan at times. When I'm like idling, I feel like calling him or something. But instead, I will just not look at the phone and go busy myself. I don't want to bother or disturb him. Nowadays, it's like, I'm doing what I did a few months back. Keep myself busy so that I will noe think; keep working till I'm so tired that I will sleep very easily every night and etc. It's what Jianming di has told me not to do. I know he doesn't want me to be so worn out but I need to be now, at least till I have recovered. Anyway, even if I was't hurt, I also need to busy myself for the"O"s preparation. I'm lacking behind in Physics and Add. Maths especially. I also need to further stregthen my languages and my Chemistry, so that in case I fail Physics, I will not get too bad a grade for Phy-Chem. I also need to strengthen my Biology, so that I can get into Vet tech at TP.
Ok! I need to go already. Talking to Sillyboy HongYu. Think something happen between him and Grace, I don't know...need to listen 1st.
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P.S. Wish everyone have a GREAT day, week, month, year AHEAD!
5:30 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
HAPPY SWEET 16 JOSEPHINE ONG HUI GEK!! WISH YOU MANY HAPPY DAYS AHEAD!!^^AND FASTER GET MARRIED! I WANT TO BE YOUR BRIDESMAID! OR JIE MEI TUAN!!xDDD
Lols~Today celebrated Josie's birthday by going KFC after school. We went AMK KFC then AMK Hub to shop. There's HuiMei, JianWei, Victoria, Clara, me and, of cause, Birthday Girl Josephine! Hahas...
The novel and movie of P.S. I Love You are so different from each other! Just finished watching the movie. I quite like the song.
Later Mum want me to go some praying thing with her. I don't really want to go. Actually I was suppose to go only on Monday and tomorrow but I guess she changed her mind. Anyway, when I'm back home, I need to do A.Maths Prelim Paper 2. Sadly, it's due tomorrow. By the way, I missed POP because Mum scared that I will faint in school. So sad that I couldn't get my POP shirt!T_T
Today was quite lame. CF we write our own testimonial! Lols...wrote some positive adjectives for myself and some negative. It's really weird if I only write positive adjectives.
Anyways, was distracted as usual. There were times when I stone, thinking about BC. I have been burnt badly. I think he probably find it really funny, and ridiculous maybe. Lols...
Okay! I need to go. Mum want me to bathe and etc.
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8:50 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
It has been a really long three days. Tried finding a reason to laugh but couldn't; tried finding a reason to smile but couldn't; tried finding a reason to eat but couldn't; tried finding a reason to pick myself up and carry on but couldn't. Im quite a failure right? Hahas...even my laugh doesn't seem mine anymore.
Vincent scolded me time and again but I just can't change my negative attitude. So instead, I stop talking to him. It will save both of us alot of trouble: him from scolding me and me from listening to him scold me.
That day Dad came home and shouted at me. Talked back abit before shutting myself in my room to cry. Wanted to call BC but, I don't know why, I didn't. I guess it's because I don't want to bother him, after all, he's not the same old BC anymore.
Mum must have been quite relieve these 3days. Feel so moodless that I hardly touch my phone. However, feeling moodless also mean I'm careless and moody. Yesterday accidentally smashed my phone. Now I'm back to using my N73. I'm practically doing nothing but homework, school, TV, toilet, sleep and eat. I guess I've lost my interest to life. I think things will be better after "O" Levels. I got alot of confidence to gain back, and of cause, my happiness.
Even though I still get to talk to BC but I still misses him. Sad for me. I guess I will be fine. He made so many promises; gained my trust and confidence, and he throw them away, just like that. I feel so disappointed, betrayed and sad.*Sigh*Just like wad Kun says: Pain is what we call Love. Love really hurt alot. I currently only believe in God's love. I guess he will sort my life out soon enough.^^
Anyway,gtg~Byes~Good days ahead!^^
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10:30 PM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Me n Bryan Chia officially ended on TODAY! Trust gone, love gone, everything collapse...
Hahas...FREEdom 4 me? I can gt use 2 tis man=.=Lols...actually expected larhs...so wasn't really very sad...but still sad...but heys! Jordan call me XiaoDiDi Hunter...so Bryan is still my XiaoDiDi xD Hahas...dat XiaoDiDi dat made my June Hols enjoyable...yaps^^Dats him^^I wish I can type chinese nw...everytym I'm emo...I will feel damn cheena hahas...ok...I AM abit sad but heys! Love gone...wad can I do? At least God is kind 2 me tis tym hahas...made me realise frm e start...u noe? Its nt I dun love him...is he dun love me...hahas...he will b indignant when he c tis hahas...but WHO CARES? Hahas...he's nt mine frm e start...y force? Hahas...thank God 4 helping me c light thru HongYu n dat horny pig Vincent hahas...n in some terms Tim gor...DAT BASTARD SON OF A BITCH TIM GOR...wth=.=He say I'm lyk his bro...I'M NOT!!!*Indignant*Hahas...but he couldn't tink of any evidence...or mayb he found it but dundare say but heys! He's lyk a bastard himself=.=Lols...dat fker=.=I still nid act elegant in front of him! He ban me frm saying vulgarities but he didn't tink who did I learnt those bloody vulgarities frm! Bloody hell fker bastard son of a bitch...LOLs...last nite he kip saying"fk u"2 his bro xD He can't seriously...cox dey aren't gay LOLs! Anywaes...I'm nt so sad cos I hav aredy been sad dat day lerhs...so yarhs...no pt sad again=.=It's e same thing...
OK! I gt SS n a phone"date"wif Vincent...dat gay taking care of sis nw=.=Hahas...he's lyk my gorgor nw...just hornier niahs=.=Ok...Tim gor is horny too=.=Horny pigs=.=Hahas...
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P.S. I CUT MY HAIR! SO THIN N UGLY T_T But hu cares...I'm aredy ugly=.=Nvm...I'm cute aft all xD Ugly but adorable! xD
12:04 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Feeling damn freaking emo nw...
Although wished dat I hadn't told him, but I'm happy dat I told him. At least I can tell myself dat I nvr lied 2 him n dat I love him...I guess Baby Daddy was rite...e foundation of relationship is trust...how strong a relationship is whereby how strong e trust btween e couple is...I guess I wasn't meant 2b trusted...at least nt by him...I hurt myself real hard nw...Nw I can b 100% sure dat I can't trust myself...I shouldn't hav fallen so deep...I hate Tim Gor nw...I hate myself even more than I hate Tim Gor...I shouldn't hav trusted myself when I told myself I can succeed tis tym; I shouldn't hav bet on his trust 4 me; I should hav known dat he dun trust me; I'm downright stupid...retarded...dumb. When I nid him...he's arnd me...when I dunid him...he's ALSO arnd me...I rly nid him nw...but he's nt arnd me...I rly wish he's arnd me nwT_T
I pray that you will bless Bryan and lessen the hurt that I have inflicted on him. I pray that God Lord you would help him come round. I pray that you will help him realise that I never lied to him till Monday. I pray that you will help him trust me. I thank thee for blessing me and keeping my life till today. I pray that God Lord will stop preserving my life if you do not answer this prayer. I pray this all in Jesus name. Amen
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P.S. Tis URL means Love BCTQ hahas...I guess no1 realised hahas
11:30 AM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Mama hog comp 4 maple=.=Sians...tdy so far has been quite a day hahas
Talked abit 2 Tim gor last nite...he picked up maple again lols...he nw play eridanus...quite fun I guess? But as usual...he plays l8 in2 e nite...hope his body can tahan...hes just lonely n depressed I guess...hes those type cant live without love derhs...hope he can survive till his nxt love...hereby wish him n sword di gd luck in love! Hahas
Last nite tok wif dat pinkdolphin guy till quite l8...he insist on nt hanging up=.=Lols...hes funny n weird=X Lols...but I prefer BC lols...
Den went fortunate restaurant 4 breakfast wif parents n dad frens...was totally lyk a mountain tortoise! Hahas...e uncles kip teasing n laughing at me...sobs...but go hk no try dimsum is rly a waste...so e uncles were rite? Lols
Den reached home...at void deck gt some god thingys...went 2 c...quite cool...kinda interested in those religious rites...when gt tym...gona go read up n stuffs...wiki n library shuld b cool enuf^^
Sians...tdy was a eye opener hahas...but bathe liaos nid hit e bks...nid ace thru exams den can do more stuffs mahs^^Have a nice day! God bless n keep u^^
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10:24 PM
Friday, July 04, 2008
Mid-exams break finally came...can take alittle break...however...when Im getting my break...Im being left alone=.=Its lyk NOONE 2 tok 2T_T So...xin ku...weird...haix
Ytd gt totally NO mood 2 study...was complaining 2 baby daddy dat I will fail my Phy-
Chem n Geog...den he was lyk"I bless u tmr...those dat u gt study come out...those dat u din study dun come out!"Den...I was lyk"Lolx...den I bless u gt job faster den can stay in SG gimme free Physics n Maths tuition"Lolx...
Anywaex...tdy"pawned"my Chem paper...gt oni some qns nt sure how 2 do...so quite heng lorhx...nw can oni hope Paper1 will b ez...den Phy-Chem shuld b can ace thru....den geog paper...heng gt physical n human geog parts...den I do e qns quite okok lorhx...so shuld b can at least pass combined humanities...I guess so...
Den tdy talked 2 Tim Gor...missed him alot...dundare sms him cox I scare he bz...I scare I will disturb him...cox he sick oso...den I dowan disturb him rest n study lorhx...he remind me alot of Wilson lolx...both of dem oso pass"N"lvls cox lady luck shine on dem...dey damn smart...but their diff oso quite big...Tim Gor cant survive without love...Wil can...nvm...wish dem gd luck in their path of love...n of cox their"O"lvls path lolx...
Tedious wk finally ended...nw is gonna b start of an easier wk...1day 1paper if Im nt wrong...JIAYOUS TING QIU HUI! JIAYOUS EVERYONE!
Tdy jux gt a Term3 School Schedule...gt some hols here n there...some relaxing tym b4 start of Prelims2 here n there...quite ok lorhx...Jiayous^^
Ok bahx...I go lerhx...byes~
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3:10 PM
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Tdy is SUPER screwed hahax~Amaths nt enuf tym...I tot of e ans oni at e last min den NEARLY finish...jux as I was abt 2 write my ans...over lerhxT_T~Den physics paper alot nt sure so duntink I did well...sad~But nvm...nw I noe wad I nid jiayou in hahax~Im gona b guai kia n mug everyday hahax~Practise n Revise! JIAYOUS TING QIU HUI! JIAYOUS ALL!^^
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P.S. My post getting shorter hahax~Cox I using phone 2 blog~Hand pain when type too long hahax~Kaex~Gd day all! God bless!^^
2:35 PM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Vampire Knight Season1 over lerhxT_T According 2 HuiMei, Season 2 shuld b coming out in October..."O" Level season lehxT_T Haix...so intend 2 realy exempt myself frm watching Vampire Knight Season2...at least till "O"s over~Anywaex...Vampire Knight current songs rocks! Although dey r in Jap but I tink e tune n e lyrics quite nice lorhx...at least its e type of song dat I lyk...ballads hahax...Sann did say b4 dat I oni listen 2 emo ballads LOLx...but okok larhx...I listen 2 eng,jap n korean songs too~But most of dem ballads LOLx...NVM~Here r TWO of my FAVOURITE JAP SONGS~
Futatsu no Kodou to Akai Tsumi from Vampire Knight by On/Off=]
Akaku akaku akaku yurete
Yume no yume no hate e
Hanarerarenai
Mou nando mo akiramete wa oshikorosu tabi
Ikiba no nai kanjou ga me o samashiteku
Kegare no nai sono hohoemi zankoku na hodo
Tooi sonzai da to wakaru yo
Ienai kizu kokoro mushibamu dake na no ni
Yami no (naka ni) ima mo (yadoru) omoi o osaekirenai
Akaku akaku akaku yurete
Yume no yume no hate e
Deatte shimatta unmei ga mawaridasu
Dare mo dare mo shiranai himitsu
Ochite ochite ochite
Mou modorenai tsumi o kizande mo kitto
Kodoku no fuchi arukinagara sukuwarete ita
Donna toki mo kawaranai riaru na hitomi
Demo hikari ga mabushii hodo umareru kage wa
Fukaku irokoku shinobiyoru yo
Futatsu no kodou maru de awase kagami no you ni
Niteru (keredo) chigau (itami) mugen ni tsuzuite iku
Akaku akaku akaku moete
Subete subete keshite
Kanau koto no nai maboroshi ga ugokidasu
Tsuyoku tsuyoku hakanai yoru o
Koete koete koete
Nogarerarenai tsumi ni oborete mo kitto
Akaku akaku akaku yurete
Yume no yume no hate e
Deatte shimatta unmei ga mawaridasu
Dare mo dare mo shiranai himitsu
Ochite ochite ochite
Mou modorenai tsumi o kizande mo kitto
Still Doll from Vampire Knight by Kanon Wakeshima =]
Hi Miss Alice.
Anata garasu no me de
Donna yume wo
Mirareru no?
Miirareru no?
Mata atashi
Kokoro ga sakete
Nagarederu
Tsukurotta
Sukima ni sasaru
Kioku-tachi
Hi Miss Alice.
Anata kajitsu no kuchi de
Dare ni ai o
Nagete iru no?
Nageite iru no?
Mou atashi
Kotoba o tsumugu
Shita no netsu
Samekitte
Mederu o-uta mo
Utaenai
Still, you do not answer.
Woots =] Dey rock^^Im nt putting e eng translation though xD Cox it will sound abit emo=X
1:30 PM
Maths paper2 is a killerT_T I died under its hands...sobx~Im currently mourning over my death lolx
Tmr a.maths n physics...tan square date hahax~Tdy duno y lyk mental block...open paper liaox my mind still blank...I guess cox tdy din gt my usual morning msg...sad...
Ok bahx...go mug lerhx...gd day all^^God bless<3
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9:47 PM
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Yeahx! 2more papers down again! Wahahahax...lolx...
Ss paper owned me cox I din study VeniceT_T Sobx~I said so cox I cant gt an A 4 ss tis tym...sad
Kinda owned e maths paper~Its kinda ez n difficult=X Sobx
Tmr maths paper2 sure difficultT_T But nvm...I will push myself 2 do it! Jiayoux!
-End of Blogging for TODAY-HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE!^^GOD BLESS<3
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