Nvr felt so tired b4
Nvr felt so freaked out b4
Nvr felt so useless b4
Nvr felt so cold b4
Nvr felt alone b4
AND DEFINITELY
Nvr felt so SUFFOCATED by a paper wristband b4
Jux nw I was lyk going 2 fall aslp when I heard commotion outside my rm...walked out n saw my Dad holding Mum's med wif a bewildered look...hes e freaking 1 at home e WHOLE day larhx...how wuld I freaking noe wich is Mum's painkillers...so ask her lorhx...she was lyk in immense pain larhx...anywaex...she manage 2 converse...or I manage 2 understand her words...I tink both larhx=.=Anywaex...took her painkillers n was still in immense pain...so Dad drove us 2 TTSH
Felt lyk freaking shouting at e guy at e registration counter...SERIOUS...nearly shouted"NABEH! CANT U C MY MUM'S IN PAIN?! CAN U FREAKING HURRY UP?! FK U U BASTARD MANNX!"Budden in e end din...cox had exams in e morn...so e stress management lvl is still there...heng I din fall aslp...or else sure shout=.=
Den e freaking nurse...WTH...wa laox...damn pissed...YET ANOTHA FREAKING REGISTRATION...den was lyk...asking me...lyk im a 3yr old kid"Hav u registered?"I feel lyk shouting"FUCK U MANNX...IF I HAVNT REGISTERED...I WUN B FREAKING STANDING IN FRONT OF U!CAN U LYK JUX FREAKING HURRY UP N SETTLE WADEVA THINGS?!"Budden of cox I managed 2 say a yes instead of dat sentence...den she wrap some blue color wristband arnd my wrist den ask me go rm8 w8...wa laox...I feel lyk tearing e wristband out...its freaking suffocating me...
Den aft dat...w8ing at rm8...wa laox...SO MANY PATIENTS...SO LITTLE DOCS/NURSES...Im lyk freaking out there...I wan panic budden cant show my mum larhx...haix...was lyk super useless there...omggmhbt...den I feel lyk calling dem 2 hurry up n settle my mum larhx...budden I guess dey gt otha ideas...so w8ed n w8ed...w8ed n w8ed...den 1 of e freaking doc over there tell me"Xiao jie...pls go outside n w8...theres too many patients here aredy...we will call u when its ur mum's turn...dun worry...we will take care of her..."Mannx...noe dat tai chi larhx-.-Budden hello? IF ITS UR MUM...WILL U WORRY?FUCK U MANNNX...so feeling damn pissed...walked out n Dad treated me milo...calmed down abit n so sat down at w8ing rm 2 w8...den was HOPING dat 1 of my darlings will b lyk awake 2 lyk calm me down n everything...budden I was ALL ALONE...freaking shit larhx...alone there w8ing...den my leg even cramped=.=Wa laox larhx...cramped at dat tym...sianx...so hopped back 2 find Mum...den she told me long story...abt wad happen tis morn lorhx...den its lyk...by dat tym...e hospital is FREEZING 2 me larhx...I feel Im 1/2 dead-.-
Den aft awhile...LYK FINALLY...den e doc came n attend 2 my mum...gave her a jab 2 relief her pain n den we went home...its lyk Mum was leaning on me lorhx...its lyk...Im so tired of being e pillar of support...I jux wish I can find sum1 2 lean on larhx...otha den God lorhx...prayed alot throughout e whole thing...did nt felt any beta though...ok...mayb abit...budden still e face of my mum totally bring everything back...tis is lyk e 2nd tym I c her cry lorhx...cox my Mum is strong...so dats y I owaex force myself 2 b strong...so dat when my Mum is feeling weak...at least she can lean on me...den I realise...I cant lean on any1...its lyk...I guess even my frens r tired of my whining...haix...how I wish I can find sum1 2 lean on larhx...I hate difficult life...budden its difficult nt cox its hard...budden its difficult cox Im e pillar of support...feel so tired...WISH sum1 will bcome my pillar of support...budden looks lyk a no=X
Im all alone, e rms r getting smaller...
I wonder how,
I wonder why
I wonder where dey r
E days we had
E songs we sang tgt...
Sign Off
LeEmoishQQ
P.S. I noe Im nt suppose 2 emo...budden IM JUX SO FREAKING EMO T_T
