Y m I e stupid soft 1 dat oways say sorry 1st?!Y m I e dumb ass stupid person dat cry aft I lost sth instead of being strong?!Y m I so loyal 2 my frens?!Y m I ME?!Y m I playing maple?!Y m I so high lvl?!Y do ppl hate me so much?!On e countary~Y do ppl love me too?!Y does I hav such wondrous frens lyk Sann Saman Jo Jul n SH?!I seriously dun deserve dem lar~!!!!Esp when during my PMS days...its lyk I will make dem pissed of at me lar~!!!!
Ok I admit...pass few days I was pms-ing...so blew up Sann&Jo...2 of my top most best frens...I juz blew dem up n I duno y~!!!!Can dey stop being nice 2 me?!Its lyk I dun deserve it lar...dey r juz too nice...n wheneva I pms...dey confirm will kena my mood swing de lar...so damn stupidly guilty~!!!!Argh...wad hav I doneT_T...its lykIm feeling I dun treasure dem...budden its lyk if dey r gone...I tink I will die...n seriously...die...
Sat was e day I finally lvled 2 82...aft mths of tears n hardwork...I finally bought 2X n chiong...I guess I juz wan chiong all my anger out...I stayed on e comp till I lvled...I guess its oso my anger dat brought me 2 tink of KJ...I realise I use 2 complain dat wheneva KJ angry...he will blew me up...I noe how 2 say KJ...budden wad I do wheneva I pms?!Haizzz...so actually kinda called up KJ...guess juz wanna chat wif dat stupid old fren of mine...n hoping dat Liser will b there too...budden Liser mugging lyk siao...heard frm KJ...n so...tok 2 KJ lor...guess e fight straighten my tinking...I shuldnt blame othas 4 hu dey r...every1 is different...if I blame dem 4 hu dey r...y nt blame myself 4 hu I m...y chgn dem?!Dey r juz being dem aft all...so I guess 2 prevent anymore friction btween me n KJ...2 b silent n tok less 2 him...toking in maple is enuf...juz stay as maple frens will b enuf...RL frens quite impossible...too much differences wich I cant remain silent abt=.=no matter how much I tried...
As Tuesday creeps up...Im kinda getting scared...I duno y...suddenly hope Sann Saman Jo Jul will b going wif me 2 KKH nxt Tues when I take e results...I juz duno y...going there alone seems 2 juz...gimme e creeps...if its negative how?...I duntink I can survive alone...budden...I guess I hav 2...
Den juz nw...DarDar was being so funny...LOL...b his Ah Ma...LMAO...
Well...aft tis post...finally feel slpy le...mayb coz all e things I wanna say is out le...abt my fears n everything...haizzz...gd nite...ty sry n I love u...2 all my frens dat I pissed off...
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