sigh...nw even blogger shua wo...errors in publishing...aiya nvm lor...nvr publish beta lar...den no1 will c n worry lor...has been v.sad l8ly...sleeping lyk no1 cares...dun feel lyk playing...hav e feeling of crying everyday...but no matter wad will still put a smile on my face n face e challenges of e day...nw ncc n maple hav bcum my life aredy...it givs me a chance 2 run away frm e problems i faced daily...sigh...nw i dun even dare 2 tell any1 of my frenz my feelings 4 fear dat i will make dem worry n oso dat dey will betray me lar...mayb im too paranoid or sth...its lyk wad huimei say is rite lor...u muz b wary of those closest 2 u coz dey noe u e best...as e saying goes...知己知彼才能百战百胜...guess i gt no1 2 rely on but myself le...well gtg...hav 2 help kj play his 2x exp le...

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noe its v.l8 le lor...but still cant sleep so blog 2 kip myself occupied lor...wonder hows 2day shooting n everything...heard it was fun lor...my hp spoil so wun b contactable 4 quite a tym lar...my hp sot sot de lar...2day play maple awhile den gt scolded le...everything oso my fault...if i die den no prob liao lor...den since im nt old so wun die soon...might as well pick a nite...u guyz take champagne den when i jump frm my rm de window u guyz open e champagne lor...den celebrate my death...juz throw my remains in2 a coffin n bury e coffin can le lor...den u guyz can 4gt all bout me le lor...

anyway at tis tym of e nite...my source of comfort is oni my comp lar...since every1 is asleep...envy u guyz can sleep n i cant...every nite i repeat e same process lor...its lyk my life loz its vibrancy in e nite n im back 2 square1...zombie-lyk life...kk...dun tink too much le...well...tink i go play maple 2 destress...

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sick...so no open hse wich is a gd thing but hav no shooting wich is damn sad...ytd training v hard...nw how body aching...but aftr dat e cheezito pockett heals lor...lol...laz nite gt fite wif mum...starting 2 feel dat my life is lyk e life of singapore...nw is internal self-government n on road 2 independence...lol...kk gtg...

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sigh...duno y tis few days dun feel gd lar...its lyk duno y feel sad...feel lyk bingeing n everything...i binge dat day though n i end up regretting coz i hav 2 w8 till all digested den i can sleep n i was v.tired but cant sleep...nw playing maple intensively...sigh...havnt been playing much coz of ncc...yr end jiu cpl le...wonder can attain dat rank anot...den mitchell dey all nw training us intensively but despite dat it cause me 2 b tired n thus sleep early n everything...in fact i havnt been conferencing alot...mum oso kip fa xie xing qing on me...everything oso my fault...v.sad lar...kk dun tink so much...

anyway...ytd we gt our combi results ytd...i gt in2 humility next yr...anyway i saw alot of crying faces after every1 noe their combi...n i wanna say 2 those hu gt e combi dey dowan...dun b sad lar...juz chiong n do well 4 e O lvls...dats more impotant...u nvr noe if u might end up lyking ur sub...god muz hav a reason 4 putting u in ur combis...so dun b sad le lar...chiong 4 O lvls bah!!!

JIA YOU!!!!!XD

ok me trying 2 make myself happy again...sigh...mum scolding me again...bb n stay happy oways!! =)

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sigh...had a fun tym in sh hse 2day...den reach home jiu play maple...juz dun feel lyk eating so havnt eat my dinner yet...

anyway...honestly...sry kj...i feel kj treating me lyk jw say i treat him...dowan throw 1side...wan muz b around...gt e.g. lor...

wheneva he play maple or is at lan shop or sth...as in playing comp...he wun reply my msg or anything...he lyk totally duncare me...lyk i dun exist...den dat tym he n me gt in2 fite cos he wan tok 2 me den i tired n i wan sleep so i din...den he juz blow up 4 no absolute reason...

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hes using me...treating me lyk a maid...at his beck n call at all tyms...nid den make lyk v.gd...dunid den throw away...lyk nt exist nor hav any feelings...

its lyk he using me till shuang shuang...tink i wad...a doll arh...wan play jiu play wan throw aside jiu throw aside arh...he tinks i betray him...i tink he using me lor...no respect 4 othas...he hor wan fa xie jiu fa xie wan angry jiu angry...tink we wad...a doll meh?!?!? hus he 2 treat us lyk dat lar...den lyk dat tym when he angry jiu anyhow scold ppl...its lyk he no care otha ppl feelings 1 lar...muz teach him a lesson le lor...stupid freak...nw i understand how jw feel when i treat him lyk dat lor...thus im sooooooo sorry 2 him lor...sigh...

den we oso gt tok bout jw...we say if he wuld change his att or char or sth...he can actually b sum1 v.attracting...he can b more perfect den alot of ppl lor...but his char or sth bad lor[sry jw]...thus gt alot of ppl bu shuang him lor...sigh...anyway...he bu shuang me jiu suan le...i oso duncare le...at least we nt dat cold liao...wonder is a gd thing anot lor...

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sigh...me no go sku 2day...actually nt really physically sick till cant go sku lar...juz sick mentally lor...aiya...oso duno how 2 xplainden 2day despite having sku...kj still sms me 2 kip me company...v.grateful lar...but if he gt caught i will b kinda guilty lor...although im still abit angry at him lar...but he dun cross e line he wun gt cold treatment lar...lyk ytd he cross e line n i gav him a lecture dat ended up wif him omoz in tears lar...but i din feel guilty or anything lor...dano y...sigh...but im really sorry i made his life difficult but its he hu make me blew up at him lor...nw trying 2 maintain frenship wif him lar...so each of us giv in abit lor...lyk dey say...退一步，海阔天空lor...hahaz

anyway...2day woke up 2 xt calling me...den reply kj ms...den watch tv...chat wif kj n sandra on e phone...den nw blogging lor...duno wad 2 do nw...sigh...well gtg...

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lol...nw v.bored...2day sku sandra n vicky absent...wonder r dey ok...den 2day alicia bday...happy bday alicia pan...den early morning jiu l8 4 inspection...do 20 den scolded by terence tan angel n yanling lor...but i nt really willing 2 go lor...c dem go den folo dem go 1...dowan gt punish oso...so go lor...den go back parade square sing bday song 4 alicia den me chat awhile wif sj dey all n im back 2 xt there...

after assembly go hall 4 post exam activities...concert fun lar...but i rather b home...tis thurs nth 2 do...tink i chiong maple den go back orbis tis wk end...mayb sj will stay in orbis after all...but i feel i stay in vic beta lor...if hadnt b cos of e maple hist bk n chief stan letter i wun go orbis or ludi...sigh...nw healing zombie mush 2 train...its fun lar...train fast oso...heal heal abit jiu 50% le...gd lor...but lvl high dunhav dat priviledge lor...sadist...anyway when im done wif my quest i wuld probably b back in vic 4 gd...mayb train wif sj...she hit horny mush i take e zombie mush n heal heal heal...xD

subject combi choosing is damn difficult lor...torn btween combo b,c n d...in e end order is c,d,b,a,e...tink i will change 2 b,c,d,a,e leh...tempted...torn btween tis 2 combo opt...sigh...tink i go change 2 b,c,d,a,e...bb

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lol...long tym no blog le...coz of exams n various problems cropping up...anyway i did badly 4 maths paper1...english paper2 i did quite ok...gt a feelng maths paper2 will do ok while english paper1 will b quite bad...hahaz...paper1s all did bad while paper2s did ok...hahaz...so bored...

laz nite fought wif kj...dowan 2 4giv him...he sux lar...hu he tinks he is throwing tantrum at me...he has no rite 2 control me lar...i wan sleep as n when i lyk n he cant stop me...i wan hang up as n when i lyk n he cant stop me either...he has no control over me AT ALL!!!!!!!

he is e suckiest person on earth...i repeat...KHOO KOK JIE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!! tink he my bro so wad...even if he my bio bro doesnt mean i hav 2 listen 2 him...he spoil our frenship himself...he cant blame me...i was trying 2 salvage as he was breaking...since he put our frenship in2 e freezer 2 stand e cold...FINE...he cant blame me 4 being cold 2 him...

i hate him...i repeat...I HATE KHOO KOK JIE...HE SUX...TINKS HE BLANJAH ME STARS SO WAD...I CAN RETURN...I GT MY OWN ICICLES...I CAN ASK C GT ANY1 WAN LEND...I OSO WUN ASK HIM...I WUN!!!

at least till i 4giv him wich is HIGHLY UNLIKELY CONSIDERING HOW ANGRY I M...

KHOO KOK JIE...U SUX...I HATE UR ATTITUDE N TEMPER...ANGRY DOESNT MEAN U CAN DUN CARE OTHA PPL FEELLINGS...ANGRY DOESNT MEAN U CAN BEHAVE LYK A BRAINLESS MANIAC...I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U!!!!!

ok fa xie finish le...bb

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o ya...i wan thank those hu lift my spirits when im down...those hu help me lor...ty lor...really appreciate dat...thanks guyz

going thru a family crisis nw...juz hope dat wad i tot wun happen...really really sad lor...duno y...anyway...oni here 2 say sumthings lar...

history paper was quite average...MCQ quite difficult...source base moderate n structured essays quite difficult...juz hope my feelings wun affect my marks...really scare it will lor...

dats all i hav 2 say lar...nw kinda nt happy but still fu yan ppl by acting happy lor...tired of doing dat lor...but nvm lor...tink i wun do dat le...

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ok...bout 3 and half sub papers has gone pass...still gt maths paper2 science history home econs n art havnt gone...tmr is history n den mon science n maths paper2 den home econs n art...

1st paper is english paper...nt bad lar...quite easy n difficult lor...average paper...

2nd paper was maths paper1...quite difficult lor...its lyk...at 1st...easy...easy...average...average...ok...getting harder...wow difficult leh!!!!! i was killed by e simultaneous n 1 probabilty qns lor...thus i cant finish e paper on tym...i left e numbewr sequence qns lor...


3rd is lit...rite after maths...2 brain killing papers in 1day...no wonder i feel xhausted 2 study chinese when i reach hm...lol...dat 1 is ok lar...gt killed by e macbeth qns lor...XD

2day is e 4th paper...chinese...okok lor...e best chinese paper i sat 4...at least easier den moz taken...4 tis yr lar...but still quite difficult lor...tink my yin yong wen aredy die le lor...juz hope i dun do badly...

ok...im finish...gtg...study history 4 tmr...jia you orh!!!!!!!

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